lalala~

wuhhuuuu~ alhamdulillah.. =)

2012-02-14T09:36:00.000-08:00

yeayyyy!!
finally! i can go to Bandung peacefully! weeeeeee~
im employed! lalala~
will be starting the new jon on the 7th of March! ngeee
nervous? absolutely!
happy..thrilled..excited! cant wait to start~ hihihi
thnx Poyed for everything..without u..i would still be jobless~!! hhihihi
ade geng nanti nak rehat..Poyed n Fizan~
darlingggg...kite satu ofis nanti..hihihih..
=D

=end=

fix you

2012-02-09T06:57:00.000-08:00

been thinking a lot..
bout life and all..where do i stand..
did i do something to make me better?
in all aspect..
i dont think i achieve enough tho..
lots of things that i am not good at..
lots of things that i see lightly..
why? im afraid of changes i guess..

most of my friend are on the pathway that they wanted...
they r on the right track..
they know what they wanted to do in life..
mine is kinda blurry..
im upset on hows everything is turning out..
things are not like what i wanted..

one thing is that..
about marriage..haha..its weird tho..
i requested..please dont be married before me..
hehehe..n odd request..i know..~
just that..i dont think that i can live with the fact that he is married..
tho whom i should turn to if he is married?
the one who i share almost everything..will not be there for me anymore..
sux ok~
if he's a gurl..that wont be a problem..since he's a guy..that would be a problem..

looking for the right guy its hard..
getting my heart broken again is another thing..
wanting to be serious with someone also another thing..
how truthful are they with me?
been getting guys who r just there to have fun..
nothing serious..sux tho..~

can i just leave?
leave n just go somewhere?
im struggling with me..
whats wrong with me?

i am listening to coldplay song over and over again..
called fix you..but being sang by javier colon..
he won the voice last year..
i like his cover of the song..

"And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse? "

=end=

a day to remember..

2012-02-08T11:11:00.000-08:00

kopi died today..
cried..never thought that i would cry like that..
i was surprised when my dad said that kopi is dead..
i thought he lied..but then..i see her body..
laying still under the stairs..
i was ok at that time..but when my maid pull her out..
n wanted to bury her..i started crying..non stop.. T_T
i miss her..really do..
*crying*

rest in peace kopi..
we miss u!

=end=

cupcakes! =)

2012-02-07T09:30:00.000-08:00

in the spare time..

this is what i did with my sis n my cuzzy~

comel kan? ngee~

made 150 of cupcakes in 9 hours..

exhausted..but fun! =D

=end=

a feeling...

2012-01-16T01:25:00.000-08:00

saying something..doing something..towards others..means something..its not just an act..its a statement..understand it..think! there's a reason for it! <-- this would be my current status in FB~

when uve done something..said something..to someone..
please mean it..

i did what i did..and i expected u to know what it meant..
i am not like the other girls..
who do something just for fun..
do something just for the sake of wanting it..
or even for the sake to fill the emptiness in life..

u dont know me..u dont even try to get to know me..

so dont judge me..

i cried..heartbroken..

thank god i have friends..

who will always there to cheer me up..

being there when i just need someone to talk to other than feelings..

i really need to go to a peaceful place..

to clear my mind..

its been awhile since i do something for me..

=end=

Simple Plan...the concert! =D

2012-01-15T14:47:00.000-08:00

It was awesome..
i regret for not buying the most expensive tix~
but hey..i enjoyed every single minute of it!
it was the best concert ever...~
they were amazing on stage..great communication with the crowd..i had a blast~
i dont have time taking pix..all my pix sux..coz i was quite far from the stage..
the pix were kinda blurry..the video was memorable..looking back at the performance..its the sweetest thing..~
they make me smile everytime i listen to their songs..*which are the only songs i am listening currently..*

thanx Nyet for being the one who i share it with..
cant think of any other person who i want to spend my time with..
it was fun..let loose..being crazy once in a while..
menghabiskan suara..hahahah~

this would be part of the pix~

this would be my fav song..thank you for singing this song!! love it~

Astronaut - Simple Plan

next..Avril~!! ngee~

=end=

As at today~

2012-01-08T21:52:00.000-08:00

todayy..officially 5 days being an unemployed person!
hahahaha..sux man..after being immune having lots of work..
hectic schedule..stress..depressed..OT..sick..and lots of other things that not that amusing to say..
honestly..i miss those things..
when u r immune to those things..u tend to miss it..
laying around at home..doing nothing..sux~ boring! im lost!!! hukhukhuk..
owh how much i miss WORKING!! hahahahah..

applied for jobs.. having 2 interviews this week..
but the positions sounds boring..hahahha..just for the sake of having a job..make me applied for the job..
i can imagine how little work i will have..damn..must be boring! T_T
anyway..need to try something new aite? if i hate it..i can just jump back being an auditor~ huhu

what did i do this year..~
how did i start my year? hurmm~
1. jobless~
2. classes~
3. enjoying!
4. bought lots of CDs~
5. having issues with Unifi~

lalalala~ nothing much..hahaha..not fascinating aite? yea yea..i know..
it will tho!

im going to Simple Plan concert with my love Nas~
ngeeee! its been awhile since i go to a concert! seriously..
i cant remember when was the last time!
been bz with workk..oo yea..the last concert was MTV World Stage 3~
that was the last one! how long was that?? huhuhu

Next will be Avril Lavigne~ weeeeeee!
that i will be going with Ed..since the last concert..which was i think was in 2008..
we will repeat it again..but this time..we will be sitting at the front!! wuhuuuuu~
bought the RM239 tix (after discount)..yea yea..membazir! who cares..if u like something..its worth it..ngee~

cant wait for this weekend..Simple Plan baby!
supposedly i have class on that day..
because of SP..i will be joining the full time students..hentam sajalaaa~
hopefully si nyet tak cancel..mmg kene cekik if that happen..huhu

owh..just sharing some info~
for those who used to use streamyx and then switch to Unifi~
please go to TM point and terminate ur line!
huh..these people..lied ok~
they told me that when i switch to Unifi..my streamyx account will be automatically terminated..
but then..the bills still come..
the innocent me..keep paying to streamyx..coz i tot the account would be the same..but then..it doesnt!
suddenly..my unifi was being suspended..n i owe them rm900++..dem yu!
have to pay off all the outstanding balance..if i want to reconnect the line back..gile ape! i've been paying wut..so..i paid off the outstanding..n they will transfer all the amount i paid to the correct account..which will take about 2 to 3 months! then i will have an overpaid amount..so i wont have to pay for 3 4 months..aih..leceh betul..they should have said it earlierrrr~ so i wont be wasting my time dealing with those kind of stuff~ as for i am the MOF of the family..i have to do all the work..n have to keep track of all the bills..if the internet suddenly tak ley gune..air kene potong..elektrik tade...astro potong..everyone will be searching for me! hahaha..time tuh..lariiiiiii~ =P

owh..i can officially make this confession..!
i dont have feelings anymore for him!!! wuhuuuuu~
all this time..i tot i do..but actually..i dont..
im just scared of loosing him..because he is my love..my besfren..my brother..
im confused kot..i tot i love him..but actually..im not..
i knew it when..we unintentionally held hand..
when u r in love with someone..secretly..when he holds ur hand..or say something sweet or nice..
u will feel something..i dont know how to describe it..just that feeling..
but when he does that..i feel nothing..just someone who hold my hand..not more than that..
pelik pn ade jugak..mungkin btul..im just confused kot all this time..
now it becoming more clearer..its cool~ and i do hope that i wont fall for him again..hahahaha...n he wont act or do something that will make me fall for him again! *indirectly* hehehe

wut else..~
maybe i will start posting things again here more often..
because i have nothing else to do..hahahahah

till then

=end=

merry xmas~

2011-12-25T12:14:00.000-08:00

woooo..
its been awhile since i wrote something here..
lots to share..but i dont have time to write..
i dont even know what i have been up to lately..
seems like i lost my soul..
i lost my direction in life..
i really dont know what to doooo~!

thinking of giving up what im doing right now..
giving up studying..
i even tendered my resignation letter..
i am jobless stating January 2012~
what a way to start up the new year aite?

i am clueless..
i miss him..
but he thinks that i dont miss him..
luckily i have ur watch as a memory of u..
wear it everyday..
when will u be back? T_T

4 more days to go..
what will i do after that?
im doomed! huhuhu

=end=

hurt..

2011-11-13T09:21:00.001-08:00

loosing someone..
hurts..
i tot i would never feel this way anymore..
not now..
not when the exams is near..
i cant focus..
im not the same anymore..
picking up myself..
im falling into pieces..
i want to go someone..
i want to clear my head..
where can i go?
i dont know where to go..
when to go..
im tired..
seriously tired..

=end=

crying...

2011-11-12T09:53:00.001-08:00

this is what happen..
this one black guy..yes..african guy..~
added me up in tagged..i accepted his fren request (which i always do..kat tagged je la)
i dont know y..i replied his msgs~
it was weird tho..i've been avoiding black guys like hell..
but him..i make an exception..i dont know y..~
seriously i dont!

we chat..msg..ym..fb..~
after chatting for hours..then only i decided to give him my phone number..which is another weird thing..i never give my phone number to strangers!!! T_T
he called..we talked..he was ok..it was hard tho..i cant understand what he was saying..pelik btul bahasa die nih..hahahahha..

a few days after..i decided to meet him..
we meet..funny when i think about it..
everyone doesnt encourage me to be fren with himm...~!
only Ed, Nenek, N and my juniors yg support..~
yang laen reject!
tatau la..there is something about him which is different from the other black guy yg pernah approach me..
if he is trying to just playing with me..i think he did a good job..because i trusted him..

Frank..
i know u wont understand..
i like u..
but maybe the perception..n the past relationship..
make me this way..
i dont know what to do..
n what to feel..
i seriously did not intended to make u sad..
i dont want to break ur heart..
i dont want u to leave as well..
but i know..if i stay..n i keep looking for u..
u will get hurt..
seriously i dont know what to do..
i dont know whether i should stay..
or i should go..
please..tell me what i should do..

i may look like a bad person..
i am truly sorry..
im just...damn...forget it.
i dont know what to say anymore..
i just feel like crying right now..
just to let it all out..

i might not be ur angel..
but u will always be mine..
u r not just a dream..
thank u for loving me..
i will never find someone like u..
thank u for being apart of my life..
even for a short notice..
u r still n forever will be a fren of mine..
remember that..

=end=

huh~!!!

2011-11-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

i dont give a damn anymore..
i used to..now i dont..
have fun in ur married life..~!
i didnt expect u to changed so drastically..
u werent the same person i knew 3 4 years ago..
what happened? who knows..~

ijat!
stay strong~ nanti aku dtg lawat2 ko plak ye..
hihihi..take care babe!

=end=

weee~!

2011-10-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

wuhuuuuu..~

kami dh balik! walaupn hanya 2 hari..it was really..a fantastic weekdays gateway! hihihih...~

private swimming pool in our room!! sape tak suke kan? ley bogel2 pn bile nak..wakakak..~

a fantastic hols with fantastic frenz!

nak lagi bley??? =D

October!

2011-10-24T10:40:00.000-07:00

lots has happened~
lots to say..but dunno what to write..~

bz with work..assignment..life?
yes..lots of things happened this month..
dont have time for myself..too tired to do nething..
forcing myself to go out with frenz..
just for the sake of having a balance life~
work..study n fun!

i just got back actually..~
"celebrating" bday Pian..
bday boy merajuk konon..coz tak wish bday die~
saje dengki sebenarnye..nak tgk reaksi..
si tak malu tuh..bley plak emo sbb tak wish! ahahhaha~
berjaya disitu =P
happy burfday lalink!!
sile jaga hadiah tuh elok2~
seperti yg ditulis..penat menggumpul duet claim! wakakkaak *tipu je tuh*
semua last minit..time aku call tuh..baru g bli hadiah..
time jln2 pusing2 pyramid..baru nak carik ilham..
tetibe dpt idea..jumpe plak notepad psal tuh..sgt kena ngan tema!! hihihi~
i mean it..every single word!
dont ever forget..~
luv luv~

spending time with Nyet was the other fun part..
mesti laa kan..bile ngan die..ade je laa mende nak ckp~
tak penah tade idea..
tapi..Nyet! u still owe me La Bodega ok! bile laa tuh! balik dr Korea?? aku tuntut!! ole2 plzzzz~!!
tak sabar tunggu ko balikkkk~
sgt merindui dahhh.. *rindu bende laen sebenarnya* hhihihi =P

after all misery..which is still haunting me..until December!..~
i need a vacay..to clear my head for awhile..
this coming thursday..will be having fun with Erna n Keron!
weeeeee~ walaupn hanya PD...hahaha..hentam sajalaa~
asalkan adeeee..n i really cant wait!!

Ed tade..balik melaka dh..mmg jodoh kuat ngan org sane..~
si Nenek dh nak benti..keje tempat laen..about time! gud luck nenek! hihihi..~
Az teman tutti frutti ku~ bile ye nak maen badminton same? hikhik..~
rase macam lame dh tak dgr cite Puteh..kene ajak lepak nih!
Fizan dh jumpe dh..same si Poyed!
sape lgi ye?

skarang dh sleepy!
tdo?

=end=

di saat aku mencintaimu

2011-09-28T10:18:00.001-07:00

bongok laa lgu nih!

stress aku bile dgr..

asal dgr je..teringat die..

demmit!

bley tak jgn ingat!

asal ingat je nak nanges..~

pastuh gedik rase nak jumpe laa..ape la!

bile jumpe..sakit ati!

stress tau tak!!!

lagu..

jgn main kat radio lgi bley tak?

penat laa kene dengar tiap hari..

sedey tau!

=end=

Sums it up!

2011-09-06T06:41:00.000-07:00

haaaaa~

finally ive got a time to post something in here..

the summary of my raya~

ehhehehe..

1st raya = went to ampang...Nas came tuk beraya..karaoke with cuzzy! sis,mardhiah,miza,imal and alang! afta melalak until 4 am..we lepak mamak..meet my bro n his frenz..talk until 7 am~! hihihihi

2nd raya = sleep over at nenek's house in Ampang..all of them went out..having cousins day out without me! sedey..coz i have a date with Nas..tgk wayang! huhuhuhu~ cit chat non stop until 6am~ lalala~

3rd raya = initial plan was to go sunway lagoon..but cancel! coz sume bgn lambat...hahahahaha..so kitorg g mandi sungaiii..lalala~ balek sume pengsan..woke up at 2 am..g mamak coz lapa..then g maen snooker with the boys! ajim, kak fiza, imal, alang n sis~ reached ampang at 5am..ordered Mcd..sambung tdo! hehehe

4th raya = balik umah..just stay home until pengsan..slept the whole day..at 10 pm..jumpe Nas..karoke til 4 am! lalala~ rasenye takde singgah memane kot..terus balik..rasenye laa! hahaha

5th raya = off to Muar! Dyeha tunang..went with Ed..after Muar..g Tangkak..the place where i miss the most..my matrix! then off to Alor Gajah n Tampin..meet Ed's frenz..then g Seremban..jumpe Zam..hihi..lame tak jumpe die since that day..then send Ed balik..off tgk wayang with Nas *again* tgk cite Conan..nak sgt die tgk..3 kali die ajak..lastly tgk jugak..hihihi...~

after wayang..lepak minum..lepas dh kene marah ngan die..tersentap jap..baru jumpe tempat mkn..sampai umah kul 4! terus pengsan...~

6th raya = the final day..just dok umah diam2..tak kluar! kot! ye ke..jap jap..ade! ahhaahhaha..g tgk wayang..cite final destination 5~ lalu ed jatuh tergolek..n kaki terseliuh..hihihihi..

all and all..it was a fabulous raya for me..

i get to spent time with my beloved cousin..yg ssh gile nak jumpe..

this year...diorg beraya kl..sgt teruja! n i miss u guys terribly ~! nanti mcm nak turun BP jek..hihihi..

i miss them! T_T

=end=

Slamat Hari Raya Peeps~!

2011-08-31T02:11:00.000-07:00

Intentionally or unintentionally..

i sincerely apologize..

for the wrong doings or hurtful words or behavior..

im sorry..~ =)

hows ur raya everyone?

mine? hehe..fun!

eventho people said that rayaing in KL..

its not exactly fun..

who says?

no matter where u are..as long u r with someone u love..

its good!

most of my cousin..came to KL..

sangat merindui mereka..

1st day of raya..

as usual..kumpul umah nenek in ampang..

then all the kids kumpul2 mintak duet raya n all..

thats just it..hahahhaha..

2 stops..n my raya was over! cepat kan? hihih

Nas was the only guest i invited over..

mls nak ajak yg laen..

he came..late as usual..

layan die until tak ingat dunia..

sgt comel dirinya berbaju melayu siap sampin n songkok ok! hihihi

borak2..n dpt duet raya! hihhi..tenkiu luv!

afta then..rush to IOI..karoke..

all the cuzzy was there n i was late..

uuhuhu..melalak until 4 am ye..

ish ish..

then sambung lagi lepak tuh kat mamak!

sampai kul 7 pagi! waakakakak

balek n terus pengsan sume org..

bgn dh lambat..

pasnih nak tdo ampang plak..

its been awhile since we all meet like this..

tdo umah nenek..n just have fun..

tonite we'll be kids again..

n mesti nenek happy coz kitorg akan ade ngan nenek..

mesti bising n ceria umah tuh..

kan nek? hihihih~

tomorrow?

hhehe..mungkin g sunway lagoon..

or mandi sungai!

weeee~

cant wait!

sempat lgi set rambut sementara tunggu Nas! huhu..~

tak sempat nak set rambut coz bgn lambat! hahahaha

some of it..hehehe~

Slamat hari rayaaa~!

=end=

peace!

2011-08-21T10:16:00.000-07:00

shopping like hell tadi..
burn dh almost RM400~ T_T

shoe..dresses..jean! uwaaaaa~

not forgetting the hair...dem yu~

sume salah Ed~!!! T_T

sejak bile diriku kaki shopping?? aih~

aihh~

anyway..

iphone rosak..rase nak baling masuk tong sampah..

time nie juga die nak buat perangai kan??

huhuhu..kambenk btulllll~!!

saw him today..

lepas dh almost a week tak jumpe..

surprisingly..tak rase sedey pn..

tak berdendam..

biase je..

tpi tiap malam pn nanges kan..hahahaha..mengong jek..

die nak pindah dh..what will happen then? huhu

tadi mase kat salon..

bace this one article..

psal relationship nih la..

she learn to let go..after 3 years..huhu..lame tuh~

diriku bagaimanaaaaaa??

3 tahun gak ke? adeh~

Frenship isnt about whom u've known the longest..its about who came..and never left ur side..~

i never left u..at heart..

i hope u realise that..

luv

=end=

count on me

2011-08-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

ever heard the bruno mars song?

count on me?

i dedicate the song to~

Nas, Ed, Faris, Zamri n Keyzam..

thnk u for being there for me..

when i needed someone to talk to..

someone i needed badly when im down n heartbroken..

thank u for ur words of wisdom..

Keyzam..

ko org pertama yg aku berckp dgn smlm..

thnk u melayan aku smlm..

thnk u..walaupn ko sgt penat..

ko ade bile aku perlukan seseorg nak tenangkan aku..

sorry menyusahkan ko smlm..

u will always be a fren of mine..

sile bli hp cepat! plzz~ =)

Faris..

nanti i swuh u belasah die bagi pihak i ye!

thnk u for being there..i now u will always be there..

to be my shoulder to cry on..

ari tuh pn u dh warning kan..i tak dgr ckp u..maaf..

u r a sweetheart..n u know i love u rite..hihi..

thnk u..

Zam..

smlm org pertama aku pk..is kau..

sorry..aku try dh buat ape ko swuh..tpi tak boley..

aku tau ko marah aku kan skarang?/

degil..tanak dgr ckp..aku try nie zam..

lepas nih..tade dh ko dgr aku nanges2 call ko..huhuhu~

thnk u..sbb slalu dgr masalah aku ngan die..

mesti ko penat kan..huhuhu..~

lepas nih..aku call ko ceria dh! n bzz~ dh nak mula dh hidup baru~ =)

Ed..

ko dh tatau kan nak kate ape..

penat dgr mende same tiap ari..

kurang dh lepas nih! ko dgr psal masalah laen plak..

lalala~

Nas..

org yg paling aku takut nak ckp..

die tatau lgi..

nak dgr die marah pn takut dh..huhuhhuu

nanti2 laa kasi tau..

he was not the right person for me..

everyone knows that..

kawan2 die..sume ckp ta payah..Azman..his cousin..pn ckp lupekan..~

nape laa aku tak dgr ckp..?

they were always there for me..terharu pn ade..

diorg akan sentiasa jadi kawan aku..no matter what~

apparently..perasaan aku mende terakhir die akan jaga..

confuse..die kate aku gf die..ppuan tue pn same..

blom pape lgi..dh ade madu..haahha..

the best solution is..

walk away...

sakit..jgn ckp laa..

smlm pn dh nak eksiden dh..

nasib tersedar..kalau tak..mmg kubur laa nampaknye umah aku..

marah? tak pn..

heartbroken laa..u expect too much out of a person..but they let u down terribly..

aih..no words can describe how frustrated i am..

im frustrated at my self mostly..

stupid enough to think that a person can change

putting so much time and energy towards someone..

disappointment..lost..confuse..frustrated..everything negative..~

the more i think about it..

lagi sakit hati..

i know it will be a difficult for me to not to think bout him..

im trying my best to let this feeling go..

Azril..

take care of urself..

=end=

time

2011-08-16T11:40:00.000-07:00

exhausting trying to feel like u r doing the right thing..
in fact..in the end..u're just wasting ur time..

bkn nak mengungkit..

tpi sape nak ganti semua masa yg dh sye abiskan ngan awk?

ley ganti balek ke????

damn u!

nasib laa aku nih bkn kaki carut...

kalau tak..post kali nih penuh dgn carutan!

thank u for everything..

just thank u...~

bercerita~

2011-08-12T21:45:00.000-07:00

lack of sleep lately..

being an unofficial driver for En Azril Nahar! hikhik..

keje jauh katenye..nak dpt bus mmg tade laa..

teksi mahal..so i offered myself..

tak jauh pn dr umah..

bagus jugak amek2 die..coz in the end..i balek umah pn awal!

tade laa mama bebel~ hihihi

on Tuesday..

buka puasa with my BFF..

Erna, Keron n Fatin!

wajib..every year mesti ade..

n this year kitorg makan kat Seoul Garden, IOI~

ngeee..mkn sampai tak ingat dunia..buncit perut! hahaha..

on Wednesday..

agak hectic skit..sume mende nak buat

buka puasa ngan my BFF gak..

Ed n Az @ Swiss Garden, Pudu..

sedappppp! n murah gak laa..RM55 per head..nett ye! hihihi

berkenelan ngan one of the chef! hikhik..Kamaruzaman namenye..lalala~

beria die promote kueh tart die..nasib sedap..hihihi

after that..g menghadap nenek..

lame jugak tak jumpe nenek..

borak2 ngan nenek jap..pastuh kene balek..

coz kene amek Azril kul 11..~

Pick up Azril..

pastuh kene antar balek..sian my luv tuh..

tak tanye pn lapar ke tak..

terus antar die balek..coz ade keje nak buat ngan Nyet..

hukhuk *last minit nih*

Nas pick me up kat umah...

penat kot..tak larat mau g drive memane..

first stop..

lepak kat D'Rich, SS2, then tak siap gak keje..

pindah g McD SS15, Subang..

stayed there sampai kul 4!!! menguap jgn kate laa..

rase mcm nak amek half day je esoknye..hahahaha

stress n penat deh..Nyet tanye nak mkn ke tak..

sbb ngantuk..rela tdur..

sampai lupe nak tanye..die lapar ke tak..hahaha..sorry yang! =P

Kamis tuh..Azril ajak buka sama..

tapi penat sgt..after keje terus tdo..

Pian pn ajak gak..tpi tak sedar..tdo kan..hihih

kul 10 mcm tuh..amek gak Azril kat train..

tak mkn lagi katenye..so g laa carik KFC coz mengidam..

tapau..then mkn kat his house..skali ngan Keyzam..

smlm tak kluar..

happy dok umah..hihihi..

tdo awal!! lgi heaven..hahahah

today pn mls nak kluar..

jgn laa ade org ajak buka luar..

=end=

bukannnn~

2011-08-04T11:48:00.000-07:00

Jam ku putus sebab die..

nangis mcm org gile dlm kete..

coz jam tuh mama kasi time burfday..2 years back..

the only watch yg syg..

sedey gile..~!

as usual..die anggap mcm tade pape berlaku..

tdi..setelah sekian lame pendam..

n simpan..

celebrate jugak bday die..

dh lame plan..

tpi tak berape jadi sgt..

sbb byk mende nak buat..

but..kitorg pn mcm mood tak berape ok..

tahan je laa perasaan ..n just celebrate..

sepatutnye buat last month..

but bz ngan keje..n stuff..so tak sempat..

ingat nak buat next week..

but a few days nih..kitorg asik gado je non stop..

so..ntah ape psal ntah..tergerak ati nak buat tadi..

simple jek..bagi kek..bagi adiah..done! =)

im sorry for delaying ur bday..

sy dh plan mcm2..tpi tak jadi..

byk sgt mende jadi lately..

so i decided to buat tadi..

sorry luv..tak perfect..

next time sambung!

i luv u..

mcm org giler..

hahaha..wut to do..

berdoa one day..awk akan berubah..

please treat me like u treat the others..

tak byk pn mintak..

takkan baru nak appreciate sye bile sye dh bla kan?

time tuh..terlambat dh..

skarang blom lgi..jgn sampai sy jumpe yg laen! lalala~

nape aku still lgi dgn die?

aku pn tatau..

die paling di-anti dgn sume kawan2 aku..

tak pasal je kan?

i deserve someone better?

maybe..who knows..~

for now..he's it..

i'll be the best that i can be for him..

if he decided to leave..then what can i say..

i cant leave unless i found someone better..

its just me..

bak kate mama..

biar org buat kite..kite jgn buat kat org..

i'll stand with that..

buat laa ape nak buat..

but sy tak akan balas balek ape awk dh buat kat sye..

i'll just go..tibe2..mungkin time tuh sy btul2 tak ley terima..

tpi kalau awk rase mcm dh tak ley ngan sy..

just kasi tau..jgn pegang sy lame2..ok?

eh eh..

dh kul 3~!!!

damn..sok kejeeee~!

mlm detink ngan Nyet! weeee~

luv!

=end=

take 3~!

2011-08-01T08:08:00.000-07:00

ok..this is the third post ive tried since the last couple of days..

i know ive been ignoring this blog..

wut to do..

bz with work n frenz i guess..

lots has happen..

some sweet..n some are not..~

the bitter yet sad thing is..

i tot he was different..

i dont blame him for acting that way..

i was pushy..

i didnt trust him..

how can i? sneaking around..hiding stuff from me..

ive tried..ive even sacrifice my feeling for him..

i sacrifice my frenz..my family..my time..

everything..

it was just wasnt good enough for him..

giving him time to breathe..would do..aite?

soo..gooo~!

live ur life...im stood by far away from u..

just watching u from across..in case u needed someone to be by ur side when u need one..

the good thing is..

before puasa start..

i spent a full no disturbance hang out with Nas!

owh how i miss those time..

its been awhile since we chat n talk all night long..~

the plan was to go karoke..but then..full! we tried Low Yat n Curve..fulL!

with no plan..he drove me around kl..dunno where..n we end up at Old town white coffee..i dunno where..somewhere in wangsa maju i guess..

stayed there until 3 to 4 am..

he wanted to go home..but i said i dont want to go back home yet..

so sambung laa pusing2 kl..celah mane ntah he took me..

i was bz talking beside him..bes jugak ade driver nih..hihihihi~

we ended up lepak mamak..borak2..until 6~!

it was time to go back home..since i bawak my bro's car..kene laa balek..~

i miss hanging out like that..

i miss my frenz..

i miss spending time with someone..just talking all night long..

or just seat at the beach..or bukit..or somewhere..

just to look at the stars and view..

i miss Ed..

eventho we saw each other every day..

its not the same..

we need to go out of town or something..

just the two of us..

u..

saye tak mcm org laen..

wlpn sy kate mcm maen2..

tpi sy jujur..setia pada yg satu..

kalau awk tak boley mcm tuh..

sy tak rase sy sanggup sakit ati lgi..

pnt kan gado tiap ari..

penat kan dgr sy tuduh n carik salah awk tiap ari..

u wont find someone like me..i know u wont..

i hope u find someone better than me..

seseorg yg dpt jadi yg terbaek tuk awk..

yg percaya kat awk..

when u do..im happy~ =)

im tired..

been working like hell for the past few weeks..

Pian..miss u!

nanti lepak lgi..

=end=

get it right...~

2011-06-20T06:58:00.000-07:00

how many times will it take..

to get it right..

to get it right...~

how ever how much i try..

no matter how much i care..

it wasnt enough for u..

owh how i wish that someone will see..

the hard work ive put on on someone..

how much a care for a person..

the willingness of everything..

its over..

please stop..

just stop..

im begging u...

So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

=end=

cried

2011-06-18T14:27:00.000-07:00

ok..

tadi pagi..

nangis dlm tdo..~

yg teresak2 punye..

i knew that today..

i will cry..

n guess what..

i did!

i didnt expect that would happen..

*but when i think about it..it could happen*

should trust myself more..

urrgghhh~!

y am i like this! yyyy~!!

=end=

avoid these people lea~!

2011-06-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

1. Bad

2. Keghe

3. Farizal

4. Alok

5. Adeeb

ok..1,3,5 --> engaged 2 --> married 4? in a relationship!

please avoid them..

stay far far away kingdom as u can..

really not worth is to be labelled and cursed by their partners~

Bad.. at least tell me laa yang u dh tunang..takde laa kene serang mcm bodo..!

Keghe..seriously babe..i didnt know u r married..as requested..i deleted ur number..sorry!

Farizal..u..sorry jugak..will remove u as well..~

Alok? mmg dh terbuang..

Adeeb..aku tatau nak buat ape ngan ko nih..jauh or tak..tuh sume terpulang dgn ko..kalau ko rase ko nak kawan lagi..aku boley..tpi kaalu ko rase..kawan ngan aku akan menyusahkan ko..aku bla je la...ok? =)

dear ladies..

sile pahatkan di kepala otak anda...

aku mmg tak mungkin n tak akan amek laki2 korunk nih..

so tak yah nak serang2 mcm org gile..! tenkiu~

emo dh nih..

stress pn ade gak..

nak buang sume laki dalam hidup bley?

thnx Pian sbb ajak kuar lepak tadi..

perfect timing..~

hold on to what u said to me..

i hope u r not like one of those guys..~

=end=

A short trip to JB~ =)

2011-06-06T11:01:00.000-07:00

a short n memorable trip to JB last Sunday~

went there for a wedding..~

one of my close fren when i was in Matrix Johor..~

the place where i met wonderful people..

n still frenz till date!

Nas was the one i force to follow~

muekekekke..

since my roomate knew him..

n we went to the same Matrix..

the perfect person to invite~

Met Zana n Theya at the wedding..

the last time i saw them was the last day of matrix!

both of them hasnt change a bit..~

miss them loads~

alin! u look stunning babe~!

missing u loads..~

since u moved to kl..

should hang out..!

met with Dyeha after..~

spent time with them n catching up with everything..

i dun wanna go home..

but im working the next day..~

so we have to go back..

Nas tanak balek..hahaha..org tak penah g JB..mcm tuh laa~

will go again next time..~!

n stay there longer!

=end=

chelseaaaaaaaa~!!

2011-06-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

ehemz~

anyone going??

hikhik..~

i'll be going with Nyet~! buat mase nih mcm berdua jek..Pian tak bli tiket lgi~ huhu..kalau Pian ade tix..mungkin join venture skali~

Thanx Nyet sbb tlg blikan skaliii~

sile cuti pada hari berkenaan~

ley pegi joli2 before kejadiann~

tak pn amek aku d umah!

muekekekeke~

*excited terlebey*

=end=

dont~! please...

2011-05-28T22:51:00.000-07:00

Dear heart...

plz dont make the same mistake twice..

plz dont make me suffer becoz of it..

stay away from love..

coz i dont think the body can handle such pain nemore..~

sooooo..plzz be nice!

tenkiu~!!

im here to be frenz..

im trying to set that boundary~

but u keep ignoring it..

damn..

now im confused..again!

i dont miss him..

but i think about him..

how is that possible?

weird..~

aaa...

i think i know what to do..~

exactly what to do..~

Dear God, the only thing I ask of You

Is to hold him when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left him when I found him and now I wish I'd stayed

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again

=end=

sesuatu...~

2011-05-12T09:36:00.000-07:00

been listening to Justin Bieber song..*dont judge! hahahah*

That should be me...~

i'll go all sappy when it comes to the song that i can relate to..

dreaming n wondering around like nuts thinking bout what might happen..

why dont stuff like that happen to me..

bla bla bla..~

girls~ we tend to dream bout things that boys care less bout! hehehehe~ =)

being a glee followers..

same approach im doing..

say what i wanted to say through a song..

*before the show started..i already uses this approach~*

that should be me..holding ur hand..

that should be me..making u laugh..

that should be me..this is so sad.

.that should be me...that should be me..

that should be me..feeling ure kiss..

that should be me..buying u gift..~

this is so wrong..i cant go on..

til u believe that, that should be me..~

i wanted to miss u..

but i cant..~

i wanted to love u..

i know it is far beyond my imagination..

i wanted to have u..

i know it is impossible..

i wanted to ignore u..

i know it wont work..

i wanted to see u happy..

i know i would suffer instead..

conclusion? just let it be..

i know i cant stand u with someone else..

i know i will have to put on a fake face everytime i meet u..

i know everything..even things that i shouldnt know..im sorry for that..

u dont have to get back to me..coz i already feel hurt without u knowing it..

selfish? i dont know that would be the correct word..~

curiosity? maybe --> will kill me one day..im sure!

im not the person who u think i am..

u'll be suprise when u do..n i dont want u to know it from someone else..

i'll tell u soon..when i think it is the most appropriate time..~

the one thing that i just aching to say is that..

please stop condemning other people..

the past is past..stop it..~!

u are just like the other losers for talking bad bout someone that much..n who r u to judge a person base on their status and appearance..be thankful now that maybe no one did the same thing to u..

when one day..when u being the one people talks about..u will know how it feels like..

i dont even miss us anymore..

i dont know where is the spark that i felt when im with u..

finding someone else maybe a good idea..for now~ =)

im kinda sleepy right now..

soo..im off to bed..

before that..

Azril..i didnt forgot bout ur bday luv..

ive planned for something..but i just dont have time to do so..

will find time for ya k babe?

miss u much~

happy mumz day !

eh..Pian call!..hahaha..*gayut jap*

=end=

hihihihi..memalukan! =P

2011-05-03T07:11:00.000-07:00

hahahahhhahaha

yesterday was a totaly the unluckiest day of my life!

memalukan? hihih..yup!!!

short of cash...~

left my wallet else where..*thank god dpt balek*

penat nak pusing2 balek..

balek lambat..

n sampai ofis lambat!

nak cite detail pn memalukan diri sendiri..

so tamau cite! wakakakkaka

=end=

hospital~

2011-04-28T07:54:00.000-07:00

who ever is on my fb list would know that i was in and out the hospital these past few days..~

suspected having a high blood pressure..

but i doubt it coz my BP was always on the low side..

only recently its on the high side *very high* = abnormally high!

my vision was kinda blurry..felt like wanting to faint at one time..~

the headache was horrible..sux!

first time jumpe doc

i. amek bp 10 times!

ii. blood 4 tubes~!

iii. urine 1 bottle

results --> everything are normal

2nd time jumpe doc

i. blood 2 times in a day! = 2 tubes

ii. Electrocardiogram *ECG*

in coming test

i. 24 hour protein test

ii. ultrasound for kidney and dunno wut

iii. another blood test

iv. urine *again*

results --> pending

T_T

tapi bagus gak doc buat mende2 nih

but i want them to scan my head!

seriously~

sakit kat kepala yg tak ley blaa~! huhuhu

tadi rase nak hentuk je kepala kat dinding..

sux man~!

now die dh dtg balek..

time to tarik2 rambut!

=end=

boredommmmm~

2011-04-25T09:31:00.000-07:00

just for off the fon with Azril, Ed n Nyet!

yes..im totally bored~!

since Nyet is off to bed..

got to talk to him bout half n hour..~

ikotkan hati..mau je ckp lame2..~

memandangkan die keje..terpakse kejap~

*mau call spe plak skarang?..huhuhhu*

arghhhhh~

bosannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!

nak kluarrrrrr~!!

T_T

sok amek darah lgik..

so kene puasa..~

nak darah cleann..

kebulur lak tetibe...hihihi

tetibe ngantuk..

tdo laa

=end=

sick..~

2011-04-22T09:20:00.000-07:00

lots has happen between the last post and the one im writing right now..

im sick currently..

went to the hospital on monday..~

was there for almost 7 hours..

the lab results are not in yet..

so i dont know whats wrong with me..

will be going back there again next week for the blood and urine test *again* but this time..i will be fasting..

was on MC for 3 days..

went to work on thursday..

n u know wut..its sux to work on saturday coz im not feeling very well and really need rest..

faking the sickness tho..but i might faint anytime..

hurmm~

Nyet is not in my FB fren list anymore..

i deleted him coz i hate to look at his wall..

he knows..

but he is still my besfren..~

n i miss us..~

its been awhile..

went karok with him a few days back..

causes something bad happened to him..

and i felt guilty until now..

still cant remove the guiltiness..

wish it hasnt happened..n i am glad that nothing serious..~

im spending my nights at home..

have no mood to go out..

isolating myself perhaps..

not in the mood to mingle around anymore..

one of the reason is because Castle is on the air every night..

huge fan! hihihi

kinda tired n drowsy..

maybe the effect of the drugs im taking..

resting..

=end=

unforgettable vacay~

2011-04-11T05:23:00.000-07:00

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

i wanna go back to Sabah!!!

i miss everything!!

espeseli si gedik N tuh~

4 days..

not enough! serious not enough...

we dont want to go back..

happy giler kat sana.. T_T

wut we did~?

1. Island hopping and snorkeling *4 pulau-s*

2. Makan @ 1st Beach Seafood Restaurant @ Tanjung Aru..

3. Lepaking tepi laut..n tgk live band sambil shisha~ =D

4. Monsopian Cultural Village

5. Muzeum Sabah and Taman Warisan

6. Bukit Kasih Sayang a.k.a Bukit Kokol - makan!

7. Menggatal - Makan lgik!

8. Makan lagik! *byk tul makan* @ Restauran Makanan Sedap

9. Pasar Filipin

10. Breakfast @ Wisma Merdeka

most of our time..end up eating!! hahahahah~

lets see the total damage!

1. Hotel - RM87 for 3 nights per person

2. Island hopping (private charter boat..not forgetting..ensem giler!) - RM60 per person

3. Makan @ Tanjung Aru - RM50 per person

4. Monsopiad Cultural Village - RM25 (sepatutnye RM55..but sbb N ade..murah..kalau ade Ajin..free! damn)

5. Bukit Kasih Sayang - F.O.C *thnx En Nahalan!*

6. Makan kerang bakar lgik - F.O.C *tenkiu abg N*

7. Makan @ Restauran Makanan Sedap - F.O.C *terima kasih En. Hassanal..hhihih*

8. Pasar filipin - RM200 kot burn kat sini..T_T

9. Breakfast - RM? F.O.C gak..tenkiu my luv~! hihihi

sikit kan?

because i have an amazing fren who jadi our tour guide *and tourist at the same time* ehhehe

tenkiu tenkiu tenkiu *millions* for everything..

for ur accompany..for ur time..n for ur sleeping time..hahahahah

we dont know how we would be if u weren't around!

mesti kitorg lost giler..n dok dalam bilik je..huhuhuh

say thnx to ur family! tak sempat ckp thanx to them..huhu..

espeseli Ajin coz jadi our driver..hahaha..sian die..~

ur Dad for belanjaing us makan..ur Bro tooo~

Naqi sgt comel ok! hehehe..geram dh nihhh~

and ur beloved Hassanal..ahhaha..

for being our escort and urs..n for being our tour guide also..bawak us jln2 n makan! n antar ktorg balek! *nanges dh nih* T_T

an honor to meet all of u..~

really cant wait for our next trip there..tak sempat nih pusing2 sume tempat..

not forgetting Mista Nyet n his fren Lokman..

tenkiu amek n antar aku balek!!

jasamu sgt dkenang!!

penat sgt..

smlm tdur lambat..

coz my darling Pian dtg rumah..

lepak mkn n borak..sampai kul 12.30 malam!

huhuhu..

die pindah rumah suda..

tak sabar mau ambush rumah tuh plak..~

heheheh..~

skarang suda tiba masanye mau tdur!

gambar sume kat Keron..lom dpt lgik~

sok baru nak amek..

nie je yg ade..hihihi

=end=

bercutiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~!!!

2011-04-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

wuhuuuuu~

finally! tomorrow is da day!

but damn~

hvent finish packing yet..4 days! sampai tatau nak pack ape dah..

mcm nak bawak satu almari~ hihihihi

flight is to be schedule at 6.30 pm~

hopefully no delay~

Fatin will fetch me up at 3..

will reach Keron's house at approx 4~

n the airport at 5? perhaps~

Sabahhhh~!!

we're commmmiiinnnggg~

hikhik..

really2 cant wait!

N!!!!

miss u~!!

see u soon babe~!

finally..sampai jugak i sabah~

eventho byk giler keje kat ofis

*rasa bersalah gak kat bos n nenek~*

nanti aku lanje ye nek!! ehhehe *mesti ko bosan dgr ayat nih!*

Mista Leong~

tenkiu for making my last working day today the best one~! wakakakkaka

penat aku bagi ceramah pada dirimuuuu~

sampai org yg mendengar pn ley paham~

dirimu yg buat akaun tuh tak paham2..~

aihhhh~

owh..

lupe lak..

kepada rakan2 yg mau pesan..

sile sms! no baru k~

no lame mcm tak berape nak layann~ hihihi

more updates to come!

and u...

still not ready to talk to u..

hurt!

surprise me..maybe then i'll forgive u!

mau joliiiiiiiiii~!

*cek duet..cukup ke? haahhahaha*

=end=

perfect nightmare

2011-03-27T08:37:00.000-07:00

its been awhile..

sorry..~

went out with Erna, Fatin n Keron last night..

finalizing our tentative for the Sabah trip..~

have a lil chat with Erna..

regarding him..

and she gave me this song..

feel free to read n understand.. =)

Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry
Why don't I just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait for him to change
But it's okay, I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeahh

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, oh oooh

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not
Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it (no way)
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting (don't mind hurting)
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

No way, no way, no way,
No way, no way, no way, no way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Perfect nightmare. =by shontelle=

perfect?

yes..for the current situation..

now im quite cool down..

if u guys read my draft post..

it is much worst..~

im not the one who u will search for when u r in need of help..

i am not on top of ur list anymore..

u dont care about me at all..

its not that i exaggerate or anything..

its just that..

when u are happy..

u dont share those happiness with me..

im the last to know about everything..

u wont go the extra miles for me..*not that i want it*

u just dont know anymore!!

aku sedey..

kalau ko bace nih..

bagus laa..

ikot hati..aku nak je emel kt ko..

tpi aku takut kang aku ckp mende yg lagi menyakitkan hati..

serious aku ckp..

aku terasa gile ngan ko..

ko pegi klang..shah alam..subang!

penah tak skali ko terpikir nak singgah jumpe aku?

senang cite..

penah ke sekali ko teringat psal aku?

tak kisah laa psal ape pn..

selain dr keje ko laa kan..

penah ke?

aku tak harap pape dr ko..

mmg tak laa..

tpi bile ko dh cerita2 psal idop ko..

buat aku terpikir..

sampai aku tersentap laa senang cite..~

aku tk layak ek?

aku nih sape kan..

aku sedey giler pk..

aku ingat aku takkan laa pk sampai sejauh nih..

tpi bile dh sedey..

sume bende pn ley jadi isu..~

mungkin ko tade laa rase pape..

sbb ko penah ke amek tau psal perasaan org..

ko rase ko tak buat slh kan..

yes..

bagi ko mende nih tak slh..

bgi org laen yg ade common sense psal kawan..

sume ckp salah~

so..

agak2 ko slh tuh..

sile laa paham~

nape aku avoid ko sejak kemenjak nih..

sbb aku rase ko dh takde..

mcm kosong..

sunyi tanpa kabar berita..

byk aku nak ckp..

but tak ley nak ckp kat sini..

n aku mls nak pk..

sbb lgi pk..

lgi sakit ati..

lagi aku sakit!

=end=

tired..T_T

2011-03-06T00:41:00.000-08:00

this week..

tired!

coz of the work load at the office..~

plus with the flu..

not forgetting the coughing like hell until i cant breathe~

huhuhu..

yesterday..

supposedly..rancangnye laa~

mau pegi service kete! but then..

Mama nye psal..lambat! n penuh~! huhuhu

stress giler time tuh!

huhuhuh..

we went out instead..

pegi laa Pyramid..

karok! lepaskan tekanan batin...wakakakka..

ngan si Cikgu~ hihih

mlm tuh plak g Uptown Danau Kota..~

membeli belah..

si nenek tuh mau carik tudung~

today..

gi wedding Nyet nye abang~

penat jugak tunggu..

ye aa..

nak tunggu Nyet punye lame..

org bz kan~

kebulur gak laa time tuh...hhuhu

pas mkn..

balek laa..~

skarang sgt mengantuk..

mau tdo ke?

mcm rugi lak kalau tdo~

hahahaha

=end=

Family gatewayyyy~ =D

2011-02-28T06:36:00.000-08:00

weeeeeeeeeeee~!

as planned!

although it was a last minute plan..

it works! n we had a blast!!

*still in a vacay mood* =D

we *the cuzzies*

went on a family trip to Pulau Pangkor..

walaupn dekat..

but still..anywhere will do..

nak bercuti kann~

and it's near..approx 3 hours drive only~ =)

we went snorkeling..

boat riding..~

banana boat..~

eat, eat n eat! hihihihi~

when will this vacay jadi lagi!!!

Miza n Mira akan fly balek g blaja~

Miza g Egypt..Mira g India~

we? T_T

Kak Fiza kateee..

next year kite g Egypt!!

wuhuuuu~

tak sabar!! *kumpul duet*

p/s: sye tetibe teringat kat awak smlm~

nak tau sbb ape?

sbb smlm genap laa 8 bulan sye kenal awk~

n i miss u terribly~

nape ye awk delete sye dr fb?

T_T

=end=

the room!

2011-02-23T06:30:00.002-08:00

hehehe..

as promised!

the new room!

plz excuse the mess~

hahahaha..

*dr langkawi lgi kot! tak sempat mau mengemas!*

lalalala~

the radio was supposed to be at the corner between the dressing table and the study table..tapi malangnye..meja tak bli lagi! hihihihi..sesat dh kat situ! aih..next mission..table? ~

dlm beg tuh still lagi ade coklat from Langkawi..since im not a huge fan of chocolate..akan lame laa ade kat bilik nih~! *bile nak unpack nih~*

hihihi..my tedddyyyy~

Bubu = the brown one *from my sayang..Nyet!*

Angel = putih tuh. *Ed nye..semak je ade dlm bilik nih*

Monyet = monyet tuh *from lalink..Fizan!*

dan yg laen2 tak nampak..hihih~

cant sleep without Bubu~

maaf laa Ed..Angel ko besar sgt..sampai aku campak je kat bawah..wakakakakak

ape lagi nak deco bilik nih~

mcm nak letak mende alah tuh *seriously lupe name die ape*

area katil kosong..

akan d pikir2kan

=end=

2nd 3rd lalalaa~

2011-02-21T05:33:00.000-08:00

pheeewww~

tired! exhausted! haappppyyyy!!! enjoyeddd~!!!

*tetibe sad jap..sbb tgh dgr lagu Kekasih Gelap..wakakakak*

jom cerita psal trip to langkawi! ngeee~

as i posted on the last post..

1st day..was not as planned..

second day!

theeee best!

1. Cable car..~

2. Gunung raya~

the view at Gunung raya is awesome!!!

sejuk die..kalah genting!!

sampai tanak turun~ huuhuhu

befren with a guy kat situ..Edy name die..

jumpe gak org PJ..hihih..dak BB lak tuh~

bes borak ngan die..rase mcm dh lame kenal..~

tak sempat nak mintak FB die..huhu..

was nice meeting u Edy! =)

after naek gunung..

jumpe Wan..lame tak jumpe die..

die bawak makan kat Bamboo Restoran..best! sedap!

n menghadap laot..awwww~

suwit giler tempat tuh..

membuatkan diriku tanak balek je dr langkawi tuh~ hihihi

3rd day~

1. Mangrove tour

2. Shopping kat Kuah..~

3. Bejalan2 kat Dataran Helang tuh *sgt bosan disini*

abes jugak duet ku ari tuh..

byk giler shopping cokelat! hihihih

tak penah perabis duet kat cokelat! aih... *sambil mkn2 coklat..hehhee*

mase tour tuh jugak berkenalan ngan tour guide kat situ..ahhahaha

name die Zan..ngee~

peramah gile abg nih..

pastuh..die laajadi tour guide kitorg tuk mlm tuh jugak..hihi

die bawak kitorg mkn kat Sungai Menghulu *btul ke? ntah..*

mkn kat situ..

n i did the most embarrassing thing..

karoke kat tempat awam! wakakkakaka..

mmg berani mati laa pegi...

ngan muke tak malu nye pegi!

nyanyi lagu Doa Buat Kekasih *giler old school!*

hihihi..ade peminat! lalala~ =P

after that..lepak je tepi laot..borak~

sampai kul 5 pagi!

tak sedar tuh flight esoknye kul 11..hihih~

ikotkan hati..

nak je extend vacay tuh..

memandangkan ari isnin keje..

kene g client lak tuh!

so terpakse laa balek..sedey~

nak cuti lagiii~

eh eh..

blan 4 bkn nak g sabah ke? hihihi

=end=

1st day of vacay~

2011-02-17T19:46:00.001-08:00

weee~
reached langkawi yesterday nite..
the flight was delayed for an hour~!
dem u~
we reached LCCT at approx 5 pm
the flight was scheduled at 9.15~
hahahhaha
semangat tak?? =P

reached langkawi bout 11 pm..
rent a car..rm 100 for 2 days! *cheap man compared to KL~!*
wondering around Pantai Chenang to find a place to stay..
but most of the places are fully booked!
so we decided to pusing2 langkawi! hihihi

got lost a couple of times..
until we dunno what to doooo~
tired! no place to stay~
so we decided to sleep in the car! *adventure tak? hihi*

now..we're waiting for the room to be available~!
been up since 8 am..
wondering around finding place to stay..
found one..
but have to wait until 12 pm to check in! *a very looooonngggg time to wait!*
booked a tour for tomorrow! weee~
mangrove tour! cheap giler!
RM 100 per pax for --> bat cave, croc cave, fish feeding, lunch etc *tetibe ilang ingatan ape pakej die..hahahahaha*
ari tuh survey...bapak jin nye mahal..when we survey here instead..it is cheap! so we have our plan for tomorrow! ngeee~
as for today~
we're gonna be spending the day at the cable car and gunung raya..kakak tuh kate ade view lawa atas gunung tuh! cant wait!
malam plak..shopping? =P

of..
n for those yg nak kirim..
sile laa ye sms..
will try my best to buy!

ok..mau cek in suda~!

=end=

langkaweeeeeeee~

2011-02-16T06:03:00.000-08:00

hihihi

tomorrow will be the day that we planned from last year..

langkawi je kot!

but hey..

berjaya gak..wakakakaaka~

gonna have fun!

kinda sick right now~

will take a rest..

n will wake up later packing!

*sye rajin amek half day esok!*

damnnn~

=end=

cutiiiii~

2011-02-14T22:45:00.001-08:00

since ari nih cutiii~

decided to go berenang2 kat umah Ajim at Sri Kembangannn~

nak berendammmm~

its been awhile since i write sumething here

been bz filling my days with joy and laughter..

to overcome n not forgetting...

putting away my thoughts for someone..

its been almost a month!

almost~ *gud job lea =)*

last weekend..

went to Sungai Sendat with Pian, Fizan, Zul, Palol, Poyed, Bobo, Eng, Mai, Syaza, Nuya and Faris..

Faris decided to join tho..tetibe die nak ikot..

besides die nak teman..die pn dh lame tak mandi sungai..

ikot je laa..invited Nas..die kate tamau..

Ed n Cikgu cancelled last minute..

tape laa..

i did have fun..~ =D

unfortunately..sume tak bawak camera! aih..

sedey jek~

owh..

my room dh transform!!!

dinding dh kaler pepel~ comelllll~ =D

i re-arranged the room..

i'll post up the room arrangement later..

coz my camera is with Ed..*so does my MP3~*

in 2 days..

i will be in Langkawiiiiii~

weeee~

with Ed..~

so anyone nak pesan anything..

just leave me a sms ya~

tpi jgn byk sgt pesan..

coz naek flight gak balek..takut exceed luggage weight! =)

didnt have plan yet for langkawi..

tpi yang pasti..nak naek cable car!

looking at the weather..

takkan ujan kot..

org kate kalau ujan tak ley naek..

hopefully ley laa ye!

be frenz with a few new people currently..

not expecting nething from them..

coz asik ilang2 org je kan dlm mase2 terdekat nih..

so im laying some bricks around me so that i wont get hurt later..

erk..

dh kul 3~!

n im late~!

mau oder dominos lagikk..

partyyyY!

=end=

=)

2011-02-05T07:02:00.000-08:00

nyet!!!

hihihhihi..~

missing u already..

eventho i just meet u a few seconds ago~

yeay yeay..~

Nyet dh ade keretaaaaaa~

so proud of u love~

ley bawak diriku jln2 lgiiiiii~

ngee~

damage done today~

i.Tony Romas - Lunch

ii. Wayang - Haq *bongok giler cite nih!*

iii. Bubba Shrimp Gump - Desert! =D

iv. Karaoke!

its been awhile since i lepaks with u for that long..

lame tak tgk wayang togeda2..~

having lunch! *slalu nye dinner or late supper je!*

and the best of all..u picked me up at home n bawak jln2~

suprise menjadi~

*hugs*

now i dunno wut to do..

hahahha~

nak sambung jln2 ka?

*thinking*

=end=

its been awhile~

2011-02-03T11:38:00.000-08:00

lots of things that did happened in my life a few weeks ago..

makes me cry a lot..n fall sick!

yeahh..

he did it again..~

i think this time..he intentionally did it..

just to get rid of me..perhaps? conclusion = yes!

KJ - LCCT = approx 1 hour drive..

before event = force someone to entertain me so that i wont fall asleep..

result = nothing!

reason for being there = i cared for someone..

now = empty..~

didnt in a million years i expect this would come..

congratz! u finally did..~

and u slap me in the face so hard until i am speechless..

it was a wake up call tho..

useless..hopeless..

i cared for someone so much..until i am too hurt to feel hurt..empty! *sigh*

a few days after that..

i fall sick..

its been awhile since i fall sick that bad..

i cant breathe..i cant wake up..i slept for 2 days..

i cant talk that much..coz i was coughing like hell..i lost my voice for days..

thats how i am when i cried over something or someone..

stupid? yeah..wut to do...

Ed and Nyet was there the whole entire time...

they were the one i cried to that nite..

thnx for being there..

n u..as well..u know who u r..

im sorry i cant write ur name..

im clearing my head by hanging out with my frenz..

but still..when i reach home..

i still thinks bout the incident..

i wanted to know y..

i wanted to scream..

but i cried instead..

nothing seems to be normal anymore..

im tired of thinking of u..

can u please get out of my head!

ure driving me insane!

Faris..

thnx for being there..

ajak me lepaks tgk bola..

wayang n all..

so that i can distract myself from thinking bout him..

Nyet..

i miss u..

huhuhuh..

now im kinda lost..

coz Ed is in Kelantan..

i have no where to go..

can someone just take me away..

i dont want to cry anymore..

please?

=end=

woooppzz~

2011-01-21T05:22:00.000-08:00

eventho things did not work out..

like i said..

sye tak suke sgt kawan yg bersyarat nih..

dh penah kene skali..

serik giler nak kene lgi skali..

so..walaupn sedey giler nak lepaskan awk sebagai kawan..

tpi..wut to do..

sye tanak awk serabut2 lgi ya pak!

i will miss u babe..

walaupn baru lepak sehari..

tpi mcm bes lak borak2 n kenekan awk..

n mesti awk lega tak dgr sye bebel2 lgik..

hahhaahhaha..

thats how i hide my pain..

being cheerful~

now im in pain again..

conclusion? kene kluar carik kawan tuk gumbirakan kemuraman diri~

owh..

sakit hati nih hanye tuhan je tahu..

pakcik crowzero~

sye mintak maaf ye..sbb buat awk serabut..

ntah laa..niat asalnye nak berkawan tukar jadi lain..

nyesal? tak gune pn..

dh lepas..

nak kawan? tak bley laa plak..

serabut!! btul kate awk..

huhuhuhu..

awk ade blog? hahhahhah..

kalau kadang2 kan..

tetibe dlm 2 3 post lepas nih ade name awk..

sorry laa ye!

sye perlukan 3 4 ari nak lupekan seseorg..

sbb sye spesis tak ley ilang kawan..

gile jap jadinye!~

IA..kalau tetibe sye contact awk tuh..

sile ignore! sbb time tuh tgh stress kot..

mungkin tatau nak carik spe..awk yg terlintas kat pale otak..~

tetibe terindu plak kat si farizal..

ape cite mamat tuh!

die pn spesis si crow gak..hahaha

tpi he will be there if i need someone..ok laa tuh kan dari tade? =)

Pian is cominggggg~!

heheheh..with his new car! ngeee~

die dtg pick me up..then g angkut si nenek cikgu kat subang~

i miss him already..

nenek tuh tak mampu dh nak rindu..sbb tiap ari pn jumpe kat opis!

sambil melalak2 keriangan..hehehhe..kan nek?? =P

ok..nak kene bersiap..

kang diorg ngamuk!

slamat tinggal kawan2 ku~

=end=

sedey

2011-01-19T15:47:00.000-08:00

huhuhuhu..

sedey lagik!!

damn laa..

a wrong way to start the new year with..

babe..

y??

tot we were going to be a very good frenz~

i like u already..

coz u're cool n all..~

hurmm

=end=

last

2011-01-15T11:50:00.000-08:00

another just left me!

a great session on knowing a person for a night..

turns a sour session today..

thats y i hate to make frenz..

n get too attached to a person!

moral of the story?

dont make anymore frenz..!

=end=

Alok!

2011-01-14T10:56:00.000-08:00

15.01.2011..

happy burfday Alok!

u were right..

its been exactly 1 year we havent spoken to each other..

i remembered on ur last burfday..

i passed ur prezzy to Haziq..

coz sort of not in speaking terms..~ huhuhuh

i wish u..

i was damn happy u replied!

its been awhile..

hopefully its a good sign..

i miss u dearly!

on ur 25th bday

wish u the best of luck in life..

heard that u r working right now..thats good..

we will see each other..*hoping*

lots of stuff that i wanted to say..

so much until i dunno where to begin..

hurmm...

=end=

thoughts

2011-01-13T07:01:00.000-08:00

just finished watching Bachelorette season 6~

cried..as usual! hahaahahha

it hurts tho..

i can feel what they feel..

being rejected when u pour ure heart out for someone..

and being turn down the next day..

what am i supposed to do without u one day?

in the last relationship..

things didnt work out..

few of my frenz knew what i went tru..

i cried almost everyday..

i fell sick most of the time..

cant focus on my work..

*suddenly all the things flowing and circling tru my mind..tearyy! T_T*

wondering..

will there be someone in my life..

who i can spend the rest of my life with..

guide me in everything..

love me forever..

i dont want a fairy tale romance..

just a simple, laid back relationship would be good enough..

fun..exciting..full of colours and joy..

and most of all..loving and caring..~

when will that be ya~

=end=

Happy New Year everyoneee~ =)

2011-01-01T02:25:00.000-08:00

Flash back on what had happen in my life...

cant write in words specifically tho..

since 12 months its a very very long months..

tho many sadness in my life...

loose quite a lot of frenz..making me immune to it..

but i hate it..

but most of all..i have the ones that i can call my own..~

journey through out the year..

difficult..but wonderful..

i fell in love..n i fall out of it..

hahahaha..

Azril..

tenkiu for making me fall in love again..

awk yg ajar sye untuk terima org dlm idup sye balek..

walaupn awk tinggalkan sye gak *hantu tul*

but awk kawan syeeee~

thnx sbb tak buang sye dr idop awk..

walaupn awk bz ngan life awk..

tpi awk jumpe gak sye time awk bz tuh..

layan kerenah sye nih..

maaf ye kalau sye ade ganggu idop awk..

awk tau kan..sye addict ngan awk..hihihi..wut to dooo..

tunggu aa sye ade laki laen..baru sye tak kacau awk sgt~

semoga awk dpt kebahagiaan yang awk carikk.. =)

thnx for being a part of me~

Haziq..

walaupn kite tak bley nak berkawan sgt..

tpi aku tak penah lupekan ko..

bile dha cite die contact ko..die kate mesti aku marah kat ko..

aku jdi sebak plak..

aku paham keadaan ko..

n aku harap ko tak penah lupekan aku..

skali skala aku akan contact ko..

semoga ko berjaya lam hidup ko ye..

rindu suda mau lepak n dgr ko maen gitar..~! T_T

Pian..

hehehe..yang! aku malu suda ngan ko sebenarnye..

dh aa aku tak pernah kene tanye directly psal ape yg aku penah tulis dlm blog aku nih..

ye..aku sgt syg ko..

terharu? mmg patut pn! =P

tak sabar rasenye mau naek kete baru ko!

skarang mcm dh lame aku tak lepak ngan ko

*walaupn baru je seminggu lebey2 skit aku tak dgr cite*

aneh plak rase kalau tak dgr cite ko..

dh biase kot tiap minggu aku tau alkisah hidup ko kan..

bile ko senyap..rase kehilangan plak..wakakaka..

aku tau ko bz ngan keje ko..

aku nak msg ko pn aku takut..sbb mmg slalunye kalau ko tak msg aku tuh

aku tau dh ko sgt bz..tunggu ko je laa msg..mesti time tuh ko free~

smoga cita2 ko nak bli umah tuh termakbul yee~

nanti kite lepak2 lagi..~ =)

Fizan..

congratz dpt keje baruuuu~!

gembira aku dgr..

what a fabulous way to start the year with..

harap2 ko dpt berjaya dlm audit line nih...

jgn mls2 ye!

nanti kite jumpe2..lame dh tak lepak ngan kooo..~ =D

Diha..

oi gedik!

mentang2 ade bf..ko lupe aku kat sini..

stress aku..cepat dtg!

lame aku tak jumpe ko! last time bday ko kottt..

blan 3~ aih..berkurun dahhh~

huhuhuhuhu...

eh makcikk..nanti tunang..aku mau dtg..tak kiraaa~

sile bagi tau yee..muar tuh bkn jauh dhh...hihihi

tak sbr nak tgk ko jadi tunang org..ngeee~

Ed..

si sengal nih..ley lak bantai tdo kat sblh..huhuhu

jgn lupe holiday2 yg dh diplan tuh..

tak sabar nak buat mende2 gila bersama2..hahahahha

cpt laa mase berlalu...

nak g bercutiiiii~!!

Nyet!

ko last skali..ngeee

thnx for the wonderful year..

thnx for always be there for me no matter how bz u r..

thnx for the encouragement..the concern..n everything..

aku merindui muu~

tenkiu gak bagi Bubuuuu~

kalau Ed ade..mesti nak berebut ngan die..

die penah kidnap Bubu time tdooo..aku stress je tgkk..

skarang dh ade sisa2 si Ed tuh kat Bubu..ngek btul~

hope this year will be filled with more joy n happiness..

looking forward for itt~

overall..

lots of things happen..

things that i wish i can make it better..

things that i wish it could just stay that way..

moments that i treasure..

the one that i regret of loosing..but cant do anything about it..

my new year resolution would be

i. do something that i have never done before

ii. go somewhere that i wanting to go

iii. improving myself

iv. less gossiping *hahahahha*

v. get to know new people..

vi. get married? hihihihihi

vii. fall in love again =P

may this year be a bless full n meaningful one for me...

n u tooo

=end=

knowing u..

2010-12-26T20:17:00.000-08:00

i met this guy yesterday..

hahaha..now i know y he's into me!

damn..if Ed know the reason..she will laugh like hell!! huuhuhu

anyway..

im kinda sad it turns out this way..

i was really looking forward having an amazing time knowing him..

and i thought this friendship will last forever..

and it didnt..

i dont know y..

and i hope he will explain it to me..

its hard tho to loose someone..

even tho i just barely knew him..

im kinda choosy in starting a new frenship with..

but once i choose..i hope it will remain forever..

its heartbroken when it turns out this way..

huh..

this is the reason y i dont want to make frenz!!

*can i cry?*

=end=

recap on whats happening~

2010-12-26T20:10:00.000-08:00

lots of things been happening through out this december!

having no time to update every single thing..

these are the recap of what happen!

1. Wedding Ajim n Kak Fiza~

2. Spending lots of time with cousins n frenz

3. Office xmas party

owh..since most of the pix had been uploaded in FB..

so malas mau upload sini..

=end=

04.12.10

2010-12-04T23:39:00.000-08:00

Happy burfday Mama!!! n me!!! hehehhehe

had a wonderful pre..current.. and post party bday celeb with my close frenzz~!

was blessed to have such a wonderful frenz around me..

and i cant thank them enough for being there for me all the way~

2/12/2010..a night with Nas..

3/12/2010..a night with Ed, Az, Fizan n Adeeb

4/12/2010..a day with Erna, Keron and Fatin..

5/12/2010..a night with Pian n Ed..~

owh..i love them to the max!

Nas..thnx for the huge teddy bear!

Ed, Az, Fizan, Adeeb, Erna n Fatin..thnx for the cakes!

Ed n Pian..thnx for the cupcakes!!

after berjoli2 with Erna Keron n Fatin..

was so damn tired..

was suppose to lepaks with Ed after that..

but i was totally flat..

she came to the house..

n left me a msg..

i woke up at 3am..

i cried reading the msg at my laptop..

i cried reading the sms given by Nas..

i ran downstairs n search for my gift..

n i cried that nite...hahahahahahhaa

thnx for the prezzy n suprises..

Nas..aku akan pastikan kali nih tedi nih tak ilang! ngeee~

=end=

Din Hormatov!

2010-11-22T07:31:00.000-08:00

hahahaa

i seriously dont know y i posted this post!

maybe because i like this guy?

hahahah

yea yea..

i have a very huge crush on him..

since wen?

since his band was invited to our Pre-Graduate Dinner..

comel!! =D

saw him at the shout award..

cant take my eyes off him..

silly? hihihih

wut to do..~

nasib tak pegi serbu n peluk die..wakakakka

that would be weird~

just admire the guy..

love his fingers..

clean n panjang!..~ *this is weird*

still dont know y i posted this..

i just wanted to say it kottt..

hikhik~

sekarang sye angau~

angau ke?

sikit =P

=end=

exhausted weekend!

2010-11-21T22:46:00.000-08:00

Shout! Award 2010 sux big time~!

sound systems sux..~

the event itself is a wreck..

this year beyond compare to last year!

eventho the line up of the performers best..

but then..each artist were only given approx 20 to 30 seconds to perform..

like WTF??

i was so excited to go..but was very disappointed..

the sounds? dont even go there..

we cant even hear a thing what they were talking about...

does everything that Celcom handle will turn out sux??

this is the second even i went where Celcom is the main organizer..

second one was Search concert at bukit kiara..

that one mmg teruk coz at the beginning of the concert..

suddenly the light just went off!! bengong kan? huhu

the next day..

i picked N up..she arrived from Sabah...convo this coming saturday

congratz babe!

LCCT --> Uitm Shah Alam --> Hakim 7 --> Keramat --> Wangsa Walk --> KLCC --> Murni Aman Suria --> Keramat --> Jelutong --> Home!!

the whole day i was out!

out at 9 am..reached home at 2.30 am~ T_T

was so damn exhausted..

but i had tons of fun!

cam whoring..gossiping..playing..eating!! heehhehe

*tunggang tebalik dh the pic sequence..mls mau edit..hihi*

=end=

untitled

2010-11-16T06:06:00.000-08:00

when u write something

there's a meaning to it

whether u write it for someone, to tease a person, to remind urself or others or just for let it out of ur chest..

most of my posts..are more on my expression towards something that happened in my every day life..~

occasionally i wrote just to pissed someone off..

at times it was specifically for someone..

most of the time..it was just me..~

what i did..stories that i want to cherish..

as i read it through at times..i wanted to remind myself on what have i been to in life

did i accomplish anything?

did i hurt someone?

have i've done enough for someone so that they know how much i care for them..~?

a reminder i must say..

most of the time

i am proud of myself..

on what i have accomplish..

but there are things that i regret on doing..but im glad that i made those decision on that day~

made me think a little bit more on what should or should not be done in life..~

when u get to know me better

u will know the real me

spend time with me

i dont prefer chat, phone calls n sms..~

when u want to know someone..

meet! than u will know what u need to know..

u will know why i am as i am

u will know why i reached home at 2 3 am almost everyday..

u will know why i did what i did to someone

u will know why i get sick frequently

n mostly u will know why i choose to be fren with only those people..~

i admit

i can easily fall for a guy

but that doesnt mean that i love them

n when i love someone..u'll be surprise on what i will do for him..

there is this one guy that i once loved..

if he ever comes back again..i wont let him go..

i really regret on not seeing him back then..

1st we broke up coz he wanted to join the army..~

2 years later..he contacted me back..he saved my sis number..

but i didnt have the chance to meet him..just goodbyes..

coz he leaving again..still hoping? maybee..

most of my frenz think that i am too nice..

too nice until people starts to take advantage..~

i dont deny it..its true..~

but i do have my limits..~

u will know y suddenly i acted weird around u

u will know when..

u will know how..~

just wait and see how i treat u!

erkk..

im so damn hungry rite now!!

*tetibe tukar topik kan..hahahahahha*

was suppose to meet up with Ed..

she cancelled! n there goes my cheese naan! T_T

wanna eattttttt~~!!

=end=

tenkiu lalink!! =D

2010-11-15T07:00:00.000-08:00

ehemz..

selepas si Pian cancel dinner ari jumaat ari tuh~!

die ley jugak bantai lupe yg die janji ari ahad!

mmg emo aku ngan mamat nih..~

aku senang je..

sekali je aku beria..

the next time ko lupe..

paham2 sendiri laa..

aku malas laa kan nak mengharap..

buttt~

thnx a million for making my day complete!

satu ari nih mmg emosi sgt tak stabil..

my sis n my mom kene marah ngan aku sbb kete~

sampai kene menyusahkan org laen tuk antar aku balek..

thnx Nek!! i owe u onee~

yannkkk~

tenkiu ye blanje Chillis tadik..

nak setahun aku tunggu!

hahahahahaha...

tak penah aku tunggu adiah bday selama ini..

lgi 3 mingu..bday aku!

so kene aa blanje balek kan?? wkaakakakaka~

*demand mane plak kali nie~* hihihi

terrible day today..

nak demam..sakit tekak yg menyakitkan..

batuk dh start dh..namenye mmg akan demam~

n because of u..

ceria sikit idop ku~

Nyet!!

aku rindu ko suda!! =(

cane nih??

=end=

it was just a lie all along~

2010-11-14T11:13:00.000-08:00

tergelak aku bace status die kat tagged..

"ssh nak carik org yg jujur"

sblm meminta sesuatu..sile tgk diri sendiri dulu bley?

dalam sebanyak2 kawan yg sye penah ade..

awk laa yg paling byk menipu..

tpiiii~

itu yg awk inginkan bile awk kapel ngan org??

wow~

pnh dgr pepatah nie --> ape yg awk buat kat org..awk akan terkena balek?

karma namenye~

awk tak mungkin akan dpt seseorg yg jujur..

seorg yg setia..selagi awk tak ubah diri..~

mungkin sudah muak kot dgr org ckp mende same..

tpi sikit pn tade maksud tuk awk~

lawak..pelik..tpi wut to do~

hahahahhahahahhahaha

ok..terasa diri mcm org gile plak gelak..

tpi nak gak gelak..~

no fon yg tetibe aku ley terhafal..~

0192663***~

ape motif hafal? aku pn tatau~

ape motif aku nak tau? saje!

sakit ati? tidak same sekali~

terkilan? mungkin..sbb jauh di sudut hati...ingatkan die suda berubah..~

emo? ye jugak..sbb penat kene tpu tiap ari..~

sedey? sikit..sbb baru nampak sikit kebahagiaan ble jumpe..tpi seperti biase..mesti ade jugak cara die tuk buat seseorg tuh sedey~

gembira? tak jugak..sbbkan die..aku dh start batuk! damn~!

harapan? memandangkan tak elok mendoakan keburukan tuk seseorg..nak doakan kebahagian die mcm hipokrit plak..so namenye..lantak laa nak buat ape pn..asalkan ko bahagia~

conclusion? hurm..hati batu! =)

kambenk btul~

sikit punya ssh mau berkawan ngn die..

tak ley ke jadi normal..

tak ley ke die berkawan ngan cara yg normal~

tau ke die cara berkawan yg normal?

pernah ke berkawan?

tau ke ape konsep kawan?

aneh~

confius..~

rasa sia2 risau psal seseorg sampai mcm tuh skali..

die tak layak rasenye tuk aku rasa simpati..~

org tak pernah nak hargai ape yg dh dilakukan..

ssh jugak tuh..

baek aku risau pada org yg IKHLAS nak berkawan..

yg tau ERTI persahabatan sebenar~

susah senang seseorg tuh..

bkn ada time perlukan bantuan..

atau bosan!

aku agak ramai kawan yg mcm tuh

aku je ssh payah sibuk tanye hal diorg..

sibuk nak berjumpe..

terasa mcm terhegeh2 plak..

huh! stop!

baek fokus pada yg adaa~

aman idop aku..~

mau tdi dh..

lega sikit emosi nih..

=end=

Addicted T_T

2010-11-10T04:26:00.000-08:00

this is what i dont really like..~

when i start to contact him back..

it become addictive!

T_T

now..i wanted to call him all the time..

want to sms him every single minute!

cane laa nih?

sye suda addict pada awk skarang nih..

n yes..sye rindu awak sudaaa~!

tpi tiap kali mau jumpe..

mesti kene rejek! uhukz.. =(

nape??

=end=

get well soon..~

2010-11-09T08:17:00.000-08:00

no wonder lately i have this feeling of wanting to visit him

dari hari isnin lagi..

tetibe tergerak hati mau msg n jumpe die..

mmg patut pn..

die tgh demam~!!

baru je tepon..agak teruk jugak bunyiknyee..

mmg esok siap laa..akan ku serbu putrajaya tuh!

tunggu ye lalink!! hahaahhah

mmg kene sumbat nih ngan ubattttt~!!

owh..sye suda rindu dirinyyee~ =D

just got back from having late supper with Pian..

si gatal tuh tetibe kebulur plak..

went to Murni..mkn tamak giler..

sampai 3 dish!

ngek..lastly sume pn tak abesss~!!

ketamakkan melanda dirinyeee~

biase aa..time nak pow org..mmg sume pn nak mkn..

keji! hehe..tapi tape laa..

bkn slalu aite~?

dis month..sgt sengkek!

mau bli phone baru nye psal..

takde duet dhhhh~!

sedeyy~

tak ley nak berjoli2 sgt..

tappiiii...

tgk ek ape jadi ini bulan~!!

Jumaat --> lunch lanje bos mkn..mlm tuntut hadiah bday *setahun tunggu..hahahah*

this weekend --> training + joli2 karok ngan Cikgu + housekeeping on sunday @ office

next week --> karok same Nyet *maybe*..kuar lgi same Erna, Fatin, Keron..Ed dh abes exam..mampus! duet dh terbang2 di situuu~

the week afta that --> family day @ A'famosa *office nye*

pengsannnn~!

ilang dh sume byg2 duet..

help??

T_T

erk..ngantuk dh..

mkn byk sgtttt~

mau tdurrrr...

=end=

Fiction~

2010-11-06T20:27:00.000-07:00

i fell in luv with this song from the very first time i heard it in Palol's car~

i wanted to buy the CD yesterday..but takde!! aihhh~

so i downloaded it..hihi..*ooppzz* =P

im loving this quote

I hope its worth it..whats left behind me..yeah..I know u'll find u're way..when im not with u..

this song is about death..

a sort of "message" the he left from the person he left behind when he's gone..

a very haunting song actually..

the sound of the piano make it haunted..

out off all the sounds of music that i heard..the sound of piano yg creepyy~ huhuhu~

anyway..~

instead of referring to death..

i refer the song to the life i been up to..

leaving someone in life..

n hoping when i leave that person..

he'll be ok..n he can find his own way to live his life~

not that i wanted to leave him..

but..he doesnt make the effort of wanting me in his life..

so what for i pursue our frenship when only i was the one who amek berat psal die..~

ngee~..biar laa..hati pn dh ok..die pn tgk dah bahagia..so? life moves onnn~ =)

been busy with life..as i wrote on my previous post..

had a great nite with Erna..

yesterday..i went out with Pian..

teman die g gunting rambut in Shah Alam..

n die confident giler yg Chelsea vs Liverpool nye game smlm..

huh! its supposed to be todayyy~! ngek..

so we ended up watching MU vs Wolves..~

Wolves kalahh!! T_T porke??????

i wanted them to win coz i want MU to loooossseeee..damn..that last minute goal was a heartbreak! huhuhuhu

i laugh like hell yesterday..

biase laa..

bile ade Pian n Bobo..mmg siut laa jadinyee~

Iqbal..Mael..Kap..n Jaja was there too~

all the Chelsea fans..*except for Iqbal* hihi~

sume tertipu ngan Pian..hahahahah~

what to do today?

huh..might be going out to Giant to buy A7X cd..~

ngee..

or sleep?? =P

=end=

unplanned outing with Erna~!

2010-11-05T13:24:00.000-07:00

supposed me, erna, fatin n keron planned to go out tomorrow~
but then..last minute of cancellation of plan..
in the end..just left me n erna..
so we went put just now..~
wahhhh~
lots of gossips bout besfrens in our life..
exchanging of thought and experience between the two of the guys we were closed too~
n one thing i said to her..
out off all the people i heard bout their besfren..
made me think..
that i am blessed and thankful of having Nas as one of best ones!
all of them dont have the qualities that he have..
the sensitivity that he shows towards me..he doesnt shows his egos when he's with me..*me laa..hihi*
and lots of other little things that my frenz said bout him that she hope that a guy besfren have..~
wahhh..i said tons of times to Erna that i bersyukur giler dpt kenal Nas the way he is..
and seriously i cant live without him..huhuhu~

enough bout that..
apart of chit chatting and keeping up with each other life..
we ate at Tony Roma's..was my first time there..n the food was seriously fab n A LOT!!!
ahhahaha..mau pengsan jugak makan..tak abes! hihi..n we end up tapau-ing..hihi~
sedapp..tpi apakan daya...ckap2 nye psal..sampai terlupa mau mkn! until the place mau tutup..n we were still there! ngeee..~

since the show starts at 1145..we continue our little discussion at Starbucks~
ordered my new fave drink - Creme Brulee Frap~ buy 1 free 1~! ngeeee..sedapppp~
n we played UNO! ahhahaha..have fun thoo..

we watched You Again..
damn hilarious!!
laughing like hell~
hahahaha..ngek je cite tuh..
u guys should watch..u wont regret it..hihihi~

now im at gombak..
Adeeb's CC..saje mau lepaks..but then die bz laa plak..
so sempat laa diriku online!! ngeee~
nanti diriku update lagi..
mau letak gambarrrr...
makanan kami yg sedap2~
hihihi

=end=

life?

2010-11-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

just got back from Pavi with Nas..

watched Life As We Know It..~

cried watching that movie..

hahaaha..

Nas siap kutuk lagik..damn..

now my head hurts like hell~!

Thanks Nyet for entertaining me today..

really need someone by my side..

u..the perfect guy to be with...~

always be there for me..T_T

hopefully one day u will find me if u r in need of help~

secepat kilat diriku sampai keramat tuh!

i wanted to out..

i wanna go somewhere..

just to clear my head..my heart..everything that needs to be cleared out..

where should i go? any suggestion?

freeeeeeeeeee~

i wanna break freeeeeeee...~

*bile laa hatiku nak jadi kebal nihhhhh* sighh~

*ps..i wont like u! i never will..so plz stop! huhhu*

rindu pantai..

rindu genting..

rindu kawan2..

rindu buat keje2 gile..

rindu kehidupan dulu..

bebas dr masalah..~

=end=

weeee~

2010-10-29T19:35:00.000-07:00

after a few bad days..

yesterday was awesome!

really did hve tons of fun!

hehehhe

went karoke-ing with Pian, Palol, Zul n Shahir~!

Pian ajak g karoke..terus kate ok!

its been awhile since we went out karoke-ing..hihihi

sgt seronok..

tgk gelagat2 diorg..

lame jugak tak lepak same Shahir..

tak sempat pn nak lepak afta sesi nyanyi2 tuh..

sbb sume pn ade hal the next day..~

nasib sume dpt bgn on time!! ngeee~

dpt naek kete Palol!!! hahaha..

sanggup nih patah balek..semata2 nak naek kete die..

park my car kat umah diorg..

semata2 nak naek kete die..nak tunggu die dtg amek..sgt berjanggut!!

smlm sampai umah diorg kul 330~

ngatuk giler..sian Palol kene drive sensorg..

me n Pian ley bantai tdo plak..hahah..sorry babe!

nasib ley drive lgi..kalau tak..ade nye aku terima offer ko tdo umah mlm tuh..

hahaha..tpi tadenye aku mau tdo situh..~

Ed dh semakin pulih..

happy dgr die happy ngan kawan2 die kat sane..

die pn sibuk gak karoke! wakakkaka..~

salah satu cara tuk lepaskan tekanan!!~

Nyet..ingat tak date kite next week mau karok??

aku ade kuponn~

hihihi..bile??

bowling lagik?

aih~

mcm tak cukup je mase nak buat sume tuh ngan ko~

cpt plan!! aku rindu ko sudaaa~

*baru je jumpe..hahahahaha..gedik! =P *

mane laa cikgu nih..

penat tunggu..sampai sempat nak post kat sini..

ari nih mau g Putrajayaa~ *again*

diorg mau btulkan ic diorg..ikot saja laa..

pastuh mau g Alamanda..~

diorg tak penah g..hihihi

erkk..ade msg masuk..

mesti nenek dh sampai! hahaha~

=end=

i wont judge..trust me..~

2010-10-27T07:57:00.000-07:00

cruel u might say..

but deep inside my heart..

i dont know y..

seriously i dont..

i just trust that guy..

guts.. instinct?

perhaps..

just dont be mad..

u..the one who broke my besfren heart..

i dont know y..

i am not mad at u..

sye tak marah..

cume agak terkilan..

sbb..sye percaya kata2 yg awk ckp kat sye..

cume sye nak tau..

kenape?

rase macam mau pegi melaka..

tpi tahan je laa..

sbb kalau pegi sane..nanti die tak ley nak study..

sok ade test lgi..

sgt sakit ati sbb tak ley nak pegi sane..

kalau laa time nih ko tak berape nak bz..

sanggup je aku g sane..

temankan ko..

sampai ko dh ok..

sorry Ed..aku tak dpt nak temankan ko..

tpi kalau ko nak call..call je laa..

aku ade je..

things happen for a reason..

mungkin ko takkan paham mende tuh skarang..

ko nyesal ngan ape jadi..

aku tak salahkan ko marah2..

aku harap sgt ko mendalami sikit mende2 nih..

jgn cepat salahkan seseorg..

jgn terlalu sgt ikot emosi..

cube tenang sikit..mcm mane ko ckp ngan die mlm tuh..

aku tau ko ley buat..

aku tak halang n tak terkejut pn kalau sampai satu tahap ko akan msg die..

aku just harap..time tuh..ko jaga jugak hati ko..jaga jugak hati die..

jgn pikir hati ko je sakit..

mungkin hati die jugak sakit..kite tatau~

learn to let go..nanti ko akan rase lagi tenang..

sakit mmg sakit..

ko akan sentiase sakit..

bile ko cube nak lupekan die..lgi ssh nak lupekan..~

so..ingat je laa kenangan korang bersama..

n cipta kenangan baru supaya kenangan tuh akan pudar dgn sendirinya..

love..

things that cannot be avoided..

just have to accept n embrace it while u can..

dont be afraid when u found the right one..

u wont loose anything..

in fact u will have the meaningful life ahead with someone who u call yours~

yours alone..

im ok now..

its a new day..

27th of every month..i will remember him..

the day we first meet..

how r u Azril?

its been awhile..~

4 months..

and im sorry i didnt have the chance to get to know u very well..~

u would be my last..

n dont have any intention to look for another..~

=end=

Happy Birthday Pian~!!

2010-10-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

yanngggg~

Hepi burfdayyy~

*belated* hihihi..

aku sengaja ngak mau wish ko time bday ko *22/10*

saje nak carik pasal! hahaha...

sbnrnye aku mau celebrate minggu nih..

tpi alang2 aku dh jumpe ko ari tuh..

skali harung je laa~

cane aku ley rapat ngan ko pn aku tatau..

cane ek?

terbiase agaknye aku jumpe ko tiap minggu..~

mcm mende wajib plak aku rase..hahaha~

anyway..

hope u like what i did..~

nothing much..

coz i cant think of anything else at that time..

i think of the theme when i saw cupcakes..

u told me a few weeks before that u prefer cupcakes rather than cake..

when i saw the cupcakes @ Pavi..the theme just pop out~

sweet like candyy~

cupcakes..cotton candy..n lollipop~

hikhik *mmg kencing manis lepas tuh..hahahah*

supposed we meet up at umah cikgu~

but then..i just bought 6 pieces for u..mcm tak sedap lak bagi kat umah org..~

so i decided to meet u at ur home..

ko plak ajak naek umah..

mmg kene laa~

slack nye tade lighter! T_T

tak sempat mau surprise ko d situ~

ley plak ko tunggu terpacak kat lif~

lgi laa~

tpi comel je bile ko tak expect mende tuh~

hihihi~ malu2 kambenk! wakkaakakka

takde plak gambar ko..sume lam camera ko..

nanti aku nakkkk~!

Sufian Shaukhi~

tenkiu for being a fren of mine..

walaupn baru setahun lebey kenal ko..~

aku tak sangka ley rapat~

kenal sbb tak sengaja

*sebab org sume tanak group ngan ko..hahaha*

ko yg suke mengacau idop aku..time kt libry~

ade je laa muke ko..hhihihi..~

thnx for everything..

aku sayang ko~

ingat..aku sentiase ade di siniii~

tak jauh pn damansara tuh..

walaupn aku lambat sampai..akan sampai gak..~

hihihi...~

oi..jaga Mai tuh leklok..aku sepak ko kang kalau ko curang2 bagai~

aku tau ko jenis setia..hihihi..jiwang! wakakakkakaka~

*baru aku sedar aku tade langsung gambar ngan ko~! huhuhu*

aih..penat aku godek2 laptop nih..

aku upload gambar yg ko penah send kat aku..hhahaha..~

lalalala~

from the moment i saw u..

i wanted to be frenz with u..

i was lucky that we became frenz in the end..

eventho we knew each other just for awhile *back in uitm*

i didnt expect that we can be frenz until now..~

lots of things that i knew about u..

n i want to know u more..

i feel that there still little things that i havent figure out yet about u..~

will soon know..coz now..ko sgt byk ckp! penat dh nak layan~! hahahahaha =P

little by little..u reveal the real u..

sile kawen cepat! sbb aku suke tgk bile ko ngan anak2 buah ko..comel~ hihi

thnk u for welcoming me into ur life..

hopefully this frenship will last forever!

u r sweet like candyyyy~

lotz of luvvv~

=lea=

two broken hearts

2010-10-23T12:37:00.000-07:00

today..

two hearts have been broken..

hurts..~

sadness..~

tears..~

and other sorts of mix feelings all combine into one ..~

so hurtful until i have no more tears left for u..~

i didnt expect that my bestfren would feel the same way i feel at this very moment..

im sorry to get u involve..

i didnt know it will get this far..~

things happen not as what i expected..

frenship turns into enemy..

thing that i hate the most is loosing someone..

find it very difficult to deal with..

and im learning..

trying very hard to learn how to loose a person..

everyone knows that it is very impossible for me to let go of a fren..

Keghe @ Akram..Alok..n Haziq..

seriously..i miss all of u..

until now..

Akram..its been 2 years now..

im still dealing with the lost of u..

Alok..missing u badly..~

Haziq..where have u been??

now i have to let go another person in my life..

damn..do i have the courage to do that?

i am not capable to do that right now..

most of my fren force me to let him go..

but i cant..

ive tried..but..~

i dont want to loose another one..

plz dont force me to not be fren with him!

=end=

berdiam diri

2010-10-19T04:40:00.000-07:00

sye berdiam diri..

sbb tanak org di sekeliling awk kecik ati dgn kehadiran sye dlm hidup awk..~

sye berdiam diri..

sbb tanak ganggu idop awk..

bile sye diam..

tak bermakna sye tak amek tau psal awk..~

awk sentiase di minda sye..

tetap akan ikot perkembangan idop awk..

cume sye ikuti dlm diam..

supaya sye tak mengganggu sesiapa..~

maaf kalau awk rase sye jahat..

tak amek tau psal awk..

tak msg or call awk..

sbb sye takut kalau sye msg or call..

awk akan gado ngan org laen..

sye tunggu awk cari sye..

sbb time tuh mungkin awk tgh bersendirian n ade masa tuk sye..

awk ape khabar?

sihat?

sini je laa tempat sye ley berkomunikasi ngan awk..

sbb sye tau awk akan bace...

take care..

=end=

slamat pagi cinta..~

2010-10-18T14:23:00.000-07:00

its 5 am..
i just got back..
huh! tired like hell..
but still..i cant sleep..~

T_T
tadi lupe kunci pintu kete
abes smart tag n duet kene curik!!
uwaaaaa..kejam~!!!
pastuh terus kuar sampai tanak balek!

after work..~
i went straight to Ed house..
pick her up coz we planned to visit my grandma in Ampang..~
tetibe ari sabtu ari tuh..die sakit..
i didnt hve the chance to visit her..since Ed came home..
we planned to go visit! ~
reached there bout 8pm..
chit chat with Maklong n Nenek until 10~
hihih..lame tak borak2..~ =)

after that..we meet up with Az..
lepaks kat KJ..shisha n mkn! laparrr~
kebetulan ari nih bday Faris..
so we made a suprise visit to Damansara~
sempat bli kek! nasib kedai tuh bukak..
coz ingatkan die tutup kul 1~
bought 2 slices of cakes..
straight to Damansara~

lepak sampai tak ingat esok keje lgi~
kul 430 baru terpk nak balek!
antar Ed balek..n then Az..
nie baru sampai..
tetibe tak ngantuk!
damn..mungkin sbb dh lepas waktu tdo kot..

skarang bz kacau kopi..hihihi~
busannn!
Nyet! i miss u~

i miss u too..
satu hari tade kabar berita..
agak2 sampai bile ye?
hurm...
*slowly menjauhkan diri*
sakitnye..~ T_T
27/10..genap 4 bulan..
terribly missing u......~

=end=

perasaan

2010-10-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

i love him..

but he doesnt love me back..

he said he likes me..like = love? huhuh~

should i go..or should i stay?

awk..

sye confuse nih..

u want me to stay..

tpi bile sye stay..awk takde plak nak hargai sye..

bile sy tade..bile sye tak contact awk..awk dtg cari sye..

tpi awk cari sye tuh time awk perlukan sye je la..

kalau awk ngan org laen..awk dh tak perlukan sye...

can u please make up ur mind..?

ssh ek mau buat keputusan?

kalau awk tanak..ckp je laa tanak..

sye tak laa tinggalkan awk..kite still kawan..

cume dh laen laa skit..

boley laa saye g carik laki laen..

sye nih bkn nye jenis syg byk laki..

sbbkan awk tatau nak anggap sye ape..

sye dh tatau nak buat ape..

nak suke laki laen pn sye tak ley..

awk tanye kan nape sye suke awk..

sume org kate awk jahat..awk pn kate awk jahat..

sye pn tau awk nih tak laa baek sgt..

tpi bile awk ngan sye..awk baek..

awk jaga sye..

bile sye sakit..awk amek berat gak..

ntah laa awk..

sye dh blur n buntu pn ade..

sye dh tatau nak buat ape..

sedey dh nih..

mau je pegi jauh2..

lupekan sume mende..

lupekan awk..

nak buang perasaan nih..

nape laa sye tak hati batu mcm dulu..

tak payah ssh2 nak syg org..

takde laa slalu bersedey mcm nih..

kan?

awk tak penah pn anggap sye pape..

kawan je kan dari dulu..

sye je yg terperasan..

sye jeles tgk awk ngan yg laen..

awk tau spe yg sye maksudkan..

n i am not one of them..

nape ek? hurm..

tape la..

i just love u for who u r..

=end=

Adam Lambert Glamnation Tour Malaysia~

2010-10-14T19:32:00.000-07:00

woweeee~

the best concert ever!!

worth every single sen of it!!

oh Adam! thnx for the spectacular show..u r amazing!

n i still wonder y didnt u win AI~! T_T

the concert was schedule to start at 8pm..

by having an experience going to concert..the show NEVER starts on time~ huhu

but hey..i still came early to queue! wanting the best view so badly..

i applied annual leave! hahahha

i arrived at the Stadium at 2 pm..

but there was atleast 20 people in front of me..

owh well..better 20 than 200 aite??

i heard that the person who is queuing at the front..came at 8am!

huh!! damn..im still sleeping! hahaahahha

the gate opened at 7pm..

*see how many hours i stayed there?? for u Adam..i'll do anythinggg~*

i ran into the stadium..but there was a few people there..from the fanclub M&G..

they bought the M&G passes..damn! so damn rich i tell u..

i wanted to buy..but then..it will cost me RM600++ coz its is USD175 T_T

maybe next time!

concert started with the opening act by Ikhwan *this kid again..the same guy who opens for Avril n AAR* and Daniel from MA 2 *i think*

Adam started the how at 9!

so damn excited through out the concert..

i was screaming..jumping like hell..hahahahah..

stress released!

he sang almost all the songs in the album..

1 or 2 were left out..

n plus he sang Mad world! yeahh..but a faster version from what he did on AI..

if only he sings like what he did on AI..my heart will melt~

Love everything about the concert!

the story line..

the ballades..

the costumes..

the atmosphere!

and especially u ADAM LAMBERT!

im so proud of u..

u came here..n after being attack by our government..

u still came..u came!

thank u! thank u for giving us a chance to show how much u mean to us..

thank u for doing everything for us despite the things they said about u earlier..

thank u for giving us a very special moments n memories of us with u..~

i really hope that u will consider coming back to Malaysia..

i will 100% ensure u i will come! n will buy the M&G pass just to meet u!!

i miss u already! T_T

will u be my Valentine..~

=end=

Adeeb~

2010-10-13T21:54:00.001-07:00

Hepi burfday babe~

ehh..belated! =P

u noticed that i didnt wish u on ur bday~

i intentionally did that..

i wanted to know that u noticed or not..

clearly u did~ hihihi

i wanted to surprise u earlier..

tpi ko kan bz..rabu tu pn ko yg pilih..

aku ikot je laa..

mls nak argue byk2..coz nanti ko mcm pelik lak npe aku smgt gile nak jumpe ko~

lame dh kan kite kenal kn?

3 4 tahun jugak laa..

2nd time aku jumpe Sofaz n klik Sofaz..

time tuh laa 1st time aku jumpe ko..

time celebrate bday rodie..~

kite tak berape bercakap pn..~

aku pn tak sedar bile kite start rapat...~

mungkin laa time aku dh ade lesen n kete~

pastuh aku dtg gombak slalu~

hihhihi~

Mase aku tgh pk nak bli ape tuk ko..~

aku buntu gile...

nampak sgt aku tak kenal ko lgi..

aku hanya tau kisah2 ko..

hidup ko..

tpi aku tak mengenali diri ko..

ape ko suke..ape ko idamkan..ape ko tak suke..n mcm2 lagi laa..~

aku lom dpt pick up lgi mende2 kecik dlm idop ko..

maaf..mungkin tak cukup lagi aku spend time ngan ko~

nanti aku dtg jumpe ko lagi yeee~

kite g tempat2 yg ko kate smlm tuh! =P

Smlm kek sdp kan?

sorry..tue je yg aku mampu beri kat ko..

hepi tgk ko mkn penuh perasaan~

hihihi..thn depan buat lgiiii~ =P

Babe..

thnx for being a fren to me..

aku tau kengkadang aku nih menyakitkan ati..

suke sakitkan ati ko..

suke buat ko rasa sedey..~

ade je bende yg buat ko sakit ati kan??

hihihi..kadang2 aku sengaja..

kadang2 aku tak sengaja..

yg tak sengaja tuh..mintak maaf byk2..~

thnx jugak sbb pernah syg aku..~

pernah amek berat psal aku..

skarang still lgi ke?? hahahahaha

ko asik laa tanye aku...nih aku nak tanye ko..

ko still syg aku lgi ke?? hihihihi~

Aku pernah syg ko..

kejap je laa..hahahahah..

ko tau nape aku stop kn..

skarang? ntah..mungkin perasaan tuh ilang dh sbb sakit ati!

keji! mueekkekke...~

wut to do..

dh ko perangai cam tuh..

aku mmg terima kawan aku seadanya~

hahahahahah

u dont need to change for someone..

change because u want to..~

once u change for someone..

namenye ko tak ikhlas dgn diri ko..

ko terpakse sbb org suruh..

cube ko buat sbb ko rasa diri ko tak cukup bagus..

nanti ko akan rasa lgi senang n tenang..~

tak yah pk sbb org..

biar laa org nak ckp ape psal ko..

asalkan ko tak sakitkan ati org..n pandai bawak diri..~

Ko ramai kawan..

aku bengang bile ko buang kawan ko sbbkan ppuan..

sbb aku nih jenis syg kawan..~

hopefully ko jumpe laa sorg ppuan yg matang skit..

tau beza..tau baek buruk..syg ko seadanya..terima ko mcm nih *mcm mane tuh..hahaha*

jgn lupe aku plak..

aku akan sentiasa ade di sisi ko..

aku akan tau bile ko bersedey..

so ko tak yah laa nak lari..

akan ku carik ko di gombak tuh!

aku carik mak ko! ahahhahaha

happy burfday dear!

ive seen changes in u..n im very proud of u~

cherish what u have..dont let it go too easily..

stay happy yeah..coz its fun to be with u when u r happy n cheerful~

im always here when u need me..

just give me a call..n i will straight go to ya~ *jgn nak segan!*

when u move later..makin kerap laa aku jumpe ko kan?~

hihihihi

i'll pray for ur success..hope everything turns out the way u plan it to be!

i'll keep supporting u babe!!~

lotz of luv~

=lea=

thnx lalink~ =P

2010-10-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

2 beautiful days~

luv luv~

n i misses him already! =(

*walaupn diriku terasa terabai giler ari tuh T_T*

on monday..

detink sama Nyet~

karokkkk~

from 7 til 12~ =D

wah..been a long time since i karok with him and that long~

butttttttttttt....since die pakai iphone!

he ignored me! sedey~

iphone lagi penting dr aku??

rase mau pijak2 je phone tuh..*stress*

huhhuhu~

but it was a fun night..~

sang all nite long..

sampai tade suara dh nih..ngeee~

nak lgiiiiii~

tadi hangout sama Puteh..~

its been awhile since we hang out together..

just the two of us..~

lots of catching up..~

missing u toooo~

nanti kite kuar lgi ye nekk~ hihihi

esok kuar sama adeeb..~

jadi ke? ntah..

si mamat tuh mmg suke cancel plan last minit~

tpi diriku akan serbu jugak gombak tuh!

ngeee~

en Azril~

tetibe sye rindu awk jugak..~

nape ye?

=end=

tenkiu~

2010-10-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

Syaf, Mirul, Fara, Dan, Hanif n awek Hanif..

thnx for coming..~

lame tak jumpe ko kan Syaf n Mirul..~

last jumpe korunk time kite g vation kat Tioman~

wah..tetibe teringat laot biru..ikan..gigi? wakkaakkaka =P

they invited me to catch a movie with them..

but penat giler..smlm tdo 2 hours only..~

so i pass!

tpi yg g Genting tuh..aku ikottt~!!

hopefully takde ape laa time tuh..~

guess what..~!

my lasagna jadik! ngeee~

sedap2..tpi slack 1 mende jek..

die nye mende alah tuh *tatau name die ape..lupe dh..yg kat tgh2 tuh..kasi divide layer2 tuh*

slalu gune brand yg kaler biru tuh *tatau name die ape gak..*

tpi dh abes! so terpakse gune brand kaler oren tuh *pn tatau name die ape! wakakakka*

so tak sedap! tebal! n keras! damn..~ kasi spoil jak..~

the first one..the cheese sauce tak berape cheesy..

but the second one cheesy giler~ so lagi sedap! ngeee~

mkn penuh perasaan..~ lalala~

ok..tpu disitu..~

mkn sikit jek..sbb muak~! ahhahaha

mkn nasi pn skit..~

tetibe ari nih apettite kureng..

tpi mkn ayam golek sikit byk~ =P

Nyet!

i wont leave u babe..

even when im mad at u..i will come back to u..~

remember that!

good or bad..u r my besfren..forever n always~

i dont care how u treated others..or what others perceive u as..

u will still be my besfren..ok lalink?

so..u dont have to thank me for still being ur fren..k?

ko buat aku tertanya2 smlm..

ckp thanks tetibe..~

ingat ko dh nak tinggalkan aku..cis~!

ye yang..aku tadenye nak tinggalkan ko..!

rugi plak 6 tahun kenal ko..~

ingat kejap?? *wah..baru sedar*

tpi aku still pelik..nape out of the sudden..ko mcm tuh..~

ade org nak tinggalkan ko ke?

esok aku tanye!! jadi kan mau kuar? =D

Azril~!!

selamat bergembira bercutiii~

sye nak coklattt~

sye nak tedi bear!! ehehhe

tak pn kasi mende yg pelik2 kat sane yg tade kat kl nih~

ok? hihihi

*demand lagi*

sye nak ikot bley?? T_T

miss u babe~

sye dh ngantuk~

tpiiiii~

=end=

im sleepy T_T

2010-10-09T11:18:00.000-07:00

i cant sleep rite now..

but im so damn sleepyyyy~

really cant handle it..

wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp~!

buttttt

i have to cook the lasagna base tonite!

or else..there wont be enough time for me tomorrow~

T_T

*tue laa..spe swuh g tgk wayang!! T_T*

a few frenz are coming over tomorrow..~

demand lasagna lagik!

its been awhile since i cook anything!~

must be really awkward..hihihihihi

hopefully everything jadi!

ngeee~

owh..

tadi i went to the cinema..

watched Sammy's Adventure~!

awww...so cute!

mcm g snorkeling plak~

hihihi..i felt young n happy again~

watching cartoon~

should do that often! =D

erk..

i think the meat is ready!

gtg!

=end=

lalala~

2010-10-08T13:29:00.000-07:00

baru sampai umah! hehehe..

its 4.30 am~

afta work..i didnt know wut to do..~

so i just sat in front of my laptop from the moment i land on my bed..hihihi~

no one noticed me..huh~!

i went down at 10 something..

everyone was like.."bile balek? dh tau sakit balek lambat!"

i was like..huh?? hahahaha

i told them i went straight upstairs..tired konon...hihih~

i am seriously bored..

i called Nyet..borak2..then i asked him out..ngeee~

die mmg kompem laa takkan rejek! ngeee~ =P

hang out until 4..~

siap gado lgik..hahahaha..lame tak jumpe kan~

hikhik..

yeahh..1 down..tons more to go!

next week jumpe lgik~

Nyet on Monday..karok timee!

Adeeb on Wednesday..~

Syaf n Mirul this Sunday..~

Ed next Saturday..

plan mau g jumpe Puteh..mungkin selasa kot~

tgk keadaan..~

Ainun? hahaha..makcik nih dh byk kali ajak lepak..tak jln2 gak..hihi sorry babe! nanti aku jumpe ko ye yang! =P

wah..makin pack my jadual~

yea..kuar ngan Nas sgt hepi..

terasa bising balek diriku..hehehhe

tetibe rindu kawan2 Atcen..

ape laa cite diorg..~

aih..mmg kene contact balek nih!

Maliiii~! rindu kooo~

Zarull!! paling rindu dirimuu~~

Hapiz! erk..ari tuh dh jumpeee..Gojes? aih..lagi laa tak dgr cite..~

T_T

sy rindu kawan2 syeee~!

=end=

its 1 am..

2010-10-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

terjaga..~

penat jugak laa kalau terjaga nih..

ssh nak tdo balek..~

demam makin kurang..

tpi pening tuh ade lgi..

batuk jgn kate laaa~

tadi Pian ajak teman die g makan~

wah..rindu dh sama die..sedangkan slalu je jumpe! heeheh

die ingatkan die laa punca aku demam..

its not u babe..someone else~

esok ye aku teman ko g makan! =)

Ed dh nak g masuk utan..

siap emel lagi jadual die kat utan tuh..

hampeh tul..motif? tatau!

kang ade yg call memalam nanti tuh..~

wei babe..g utan tuh elok2~

tenangkan diri yeee...~

hopefully bile ko balek nanti..ko dh ok seperti sedia kala~

next week aku dtg lawat ko kt Melaka tuh~

kite g lepak kat tempat rahsia kita! =)

lame rasenye tak berhappy~

lame rasenye tak buat keje gila...~

maaf kawan2..aku dh abaikan korang..~

bz ngan seseorg..sampai yg laen di abaikan..~

Nyet..

aku rindu dh kat ko..~

next week kite lepak ekkk~

karok sampai lebam..aku mau menjerit!

ilangkan sakit di hati..~

Puteh, Fizan n Daud..

aku rase mcm lame je aku tak dgr cite korang..

mesti korang emo ngan aku kan??

huhuhu~

nanti aku g ziarah sorg2..hihi..wait for me!

Adeeb!!

ngee..hepi belated bday babe!

sorry..aku sengaja tak wish..sbb aku ade plan laen..

ko g mana sih? nanti aku dtg sane ek..sbb ade mende aku mau kasi~ =)

jumpe dh awek baru?? hahahaha

N~!

how r u holding up??

heard that ur convo will be somewhere around December~

cant wait to meet u! we go joli2 n have fun like we used too~

missing that moments~

i'll come to Sabah next year! maybe...hehe

miss u babe!

Dihaaaaa~!

aku nak g JB! tpi ko tak kasiiii~

huhuhuhu..

nanti ko dh settle sume..dtg kl ek!

aku rindu mau bergossip ngan ko! heheheheh..~

agak penat kalau nak mention sorg2..~

for those who i've hurt indirectly..i sincerely apologize..~

i'll make up for it..i'll try..~

Syaf n Mirul~!

jadi datang umah aku ahad nih?

korang pn lame giler aku tak jumpe!!

rindu dahh~

T_T

=end=

cant breathe~!!

2010-10-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

demam panas..

menggigil...

tension headache..

batuk!!

benciiii~!

serious! diriku takkan dekat ngan org merokok lagi~!

aih...penat laa begini..

asik laa demam~

rokok+sedey = combination yg bagus giler laa..

skarang terlantar kt umah..

dammit!

tak ley tdoooooooo~!!

penat dh telan ubat ubatan! T_T

awk..

cane org nak percaya kat awk..

kalau terang2 awk maenkan perasaan org..

serentak tuh~!

sume org awk syg..cane org nak caye kt awk..

awk dh besar panjang kot..

sampai bile aa nak mcm tuh?

hopefully awk dpt laa vacation tuh..~

tenangkan diri...

pk baek buruk..

mmg awk nampak awk slalu jadi mangsa keadaan..

slalu org slh anggap..

pk plak nape diorg berfikiran mcm tuh..~

k? wish u luck babe!

im always here when u need me..

=end=

coughing like hell!

2010-10-05T13:44:00.000-07:00

its 4.44 am *malaysian time*

i woke up a min ago..coughing like hell..

just finished vomiting..hahaha~

i dont know y i write this thing..

anyway~

i cant sleep..

so i decided to post something..

yes Azril..

akan cuba untuk tingkatkan immune system bdn sye nih..

tpi nak buat mcm mane..

mmg senang sgt sakit..

thnx for ur concern tho..~

owh..

skarang sye tau nape awk berubah..

dh mmg awk anggap sye kawan sje kan~ =)

ok laa kalau mcm tuh..

akan jadi laen laa from now onwards..~

sye tau awk syg die..

so sye stop syg awk laa..

bley kan?

kalau mcm nih..sye takkan bersedey lgi..

pastuh akan ceria..n takkan demam lgi~

moving on..~

Ed dh hepi..ngan org tersayang..

tpi ade sikit perasaan takut tuh..

boley caya ke mamat tuh?

tgk dr segi muke..boley laa..

since sye lagi suke org jahat/nakal..~

budak muke baek nih..sukar skit nak dtafsir..

mungkin blom kenal sgt..~

baru jumpe 3 4 kali..

hopefully die jujur..~

babe! kalau ko maenkan perasaan kawan aku..siap ko~!

ingat janji2 ko kat aku tau~! kalau tak..mmg kene sepak~!! ihihi

*nekkkk!!! kite bile lagi?? T_T*

if only i love someone..

if only i can care for someone..

if only u can be that someone..

its good enough for me..

u..

i miss u damn much..n it hurts~

T_T

=end=

bila cinta..

2010-10-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

Lagenda Budak Setan..

my all time fave novel by Ahadiat Akashah..

i read this book when i was in form 2..

the first novel i have ever read..

i love that book..~

when i read that book..

it sort of connected with me..

ntah2 its a true story bout the author..~

might be laa..

true love..

very difficult to find..but once u find that person..u know that person is it..

i love the way Kasyah love Ayu in the novel..

terlalu syg dirinya pada Ayu..

wish that someone will love me like that..hahahaha

ade ke laki mcm tuh skarang? sukar tuk jumpe...

nie lirik LBS..the movie..

kalau ikotkan movie die tak sebest novel..

some elements dlm tuh tak sampai~

tpi lagu die bes..

this song i dedicate to u sir..

u know who u r..~

tadi baru awk update status awk..

awk kate awk benci LBS..

tpi sye suke..novel laa...~

nangis2 sye bace novel tuh...

*mmg slalu je nanges lagipn..hahahah*

hatiku sedey..sayu..dan kosong..

mencintai seseorg yg salah..mungkin..

tpi nak jugak mencintai dirinya..

walaupn tau..mustahil untuk hubungan itu terjalin..

risiko? yeah..mmg pn..

biar la..bkn syarat untuk mencintai seseorg..dan org tue kene mencintai aku balek..

gatal kan suke org..hahaha..

lama rasenye tak syg seseorg..

ok wut syg seseorg balek..nampak dh diriku bukan hati batu..~

tenkiu sbb bukak balek pintu hati sye nih..

nanti ley terima laki2 laen..*hahahha..gatal! =P*

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Yang ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Hingga engkau pergi
Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hinggaku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku terjatuh

Dalam harapan

tpu laa kalau ckp tgh bergembira..

tpu jugak kalau cakap tak sengsara..

tpi tak tunjukkan kesedihan depan org laen..happy bile berjumpa..tahan perasaan bile bersama..

kekok? mungkin juga..terpakse biasakan diri..

tak sanggup untuk kehilangan org dlm hidup..rela makan hati dr menyesal meninggalkan seseorg..

tpi bila die yg sendiri nak pergi..tape laa..but sye takkan pergi..

=end=

saying..

2010-09-29T10:03:00.000-07:00

someone commented me..~

he post these sayings..

just maybe...~

maybe..

the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,

after all, u cant go on successfully in life until u let go of ur

past mistakes, failures and heartaches..

maybe..

happiness waits for all those who cry,

all those who hurt,

all those who have searched,

and all those who have tried,

for only they can appreciate the importance of all

the people who have touch their lives...

maybe..

u should do something nice for someone every single day,

even if it is simply to leave the alone..

and a few others~

i did do something nice today..

i leave Azril alone for today..

no sms n call for him..

penat woo tahan..mesti die happy kan? =(

ive cried a thousand buckets,

im hurt in every single way..deep cuts..it hurts! =(

ive searched..ive tried..but it was never enough..how? T_T

so many person have touched my heart..n my life..~

but they leave when they meet someone else..

frustrated when i think bout it..porkeee~!!

leave if u want to leave..

dont stay because u have to..

stay because u want to..

i dont want u to stay out of pity..its even worst!

yes...i will terribly miss u at times..

let me deal with it..

its none of ur business anymore..

just go..

and im trying my very best to leave u alone..

i gave up..seriously i do T_T

sye dh start sentimental dh...

damn~

tdo laaa

=end=

looking for a decent guy

2010-09-27T11:26:00.001-07:00

when im down..

i need to go somewhere..

or to someone..

dont care how far that someone is..

if that someone who i am comfortable with..

even if that someone stayed very far away..

i will still find ways to go to them..

now..the one who i will run to is Ed n Nas..

i want to find a decent guy..

the one who i can call mine..

waaa..bile laa mau jumpe kan?

actually im in Kemuning rite now..

queuing on behalf of my bos..

he wants to buy this house..so he ask us to queue for him

ok laa tuh..dpt duet pree...~

hahaha..buat ape je laa..

but kinda bored coz Cikgu tdo dh..

im bored to death here..

luckily ley online..

nasib jugak laptop nih ade bluetooth..

gune hp as modem to online..

kalau tak mmg ley mati bunuh diri laa..hahahahha~

mau try laa tdo..

tetibe tade mood suda mau menulis

karma..wut u did to a person..

soon..u will get back..

n i believe that =)

=end=

Azril..

2010-09-23T17:20:00.000-07:00

hey babe..

i miss u already..

smlm rasa nak demam je bile awk kate awk dh tanak kwn ngan sye..

mmg terus nanges laa time tuh..

tersentap!

dh laa tak ley rase sedey..skarang nih dh rase mcm nak demam T_T

awk..

smlm bkn sye nak ungkit..sye nak marah awk je..

awk tuh tade perasaan..awk bkn nye sedar awk dh sakitkan ati org..

pastuh tade ati pn nak mintak maaf..

sye rase nak cekik je awk ari tuh..~

dh laa awk bawak org laen..sepatutnye sye kuar ngan awk..tpi awk bwk org laen..

tue dh spoil kan mood dh..

sye dh try buat baek ngan die..ajak die borak..tpi ade ke die nak borak ngan sye??

time balek pn..tanak ckp..sye tak marah die..sye marah awk..

u know i love u..n i always will..

sye tak penah pakse awk syg sye..sye terima je awk mcm tuh..

sye sabar ngan perangai awk..yg suke bagi harapan palsu tuh..

tak kisah laa..sbb sye suke kwn ngan awk..

bile awk ngan sye..awk jaga sye elok2..

just bile awk jauh ngan sye..awk cam kejam skit..

ramai sgt kot awk nak kene jaga..

sampai tatau mane satu nak jaga..

tak kisah laa..

i will always find time to go out with u..

sbb sye tanak awk pk sye hanye carik awk time sye bosan..

walaupn slalunye awk rejek nak kuar kan..

tpe laa..mungkin bz..next time masih ade~

i miss the time mase kite awal2 kenal..

sgt rindu..~

nape mende tuh tak forever..nape tetibe jadi laen?

ape jadi ek? sampai skarang sye tatau nape..

skarang kite dh tak kawan..

sbb awk benci sye..

mmg sye btul2 buat awk marah kot..

sbb sblm nih..bile sye marah awk..

awk tak penah ckp awk benci sye..

sedey giler bile dgr..

nape awk call smlm?

sye tak ley nk angkat..sbb sedey..

n takut nanti sye tak ley kawal perasaan..

sye rindu kat awk.. T_T

jgn lupekan sye ye..

sbb sye tak ley nak lupekan awk..

sorry kalau tetibe sye akan ganggu awk..

dh terbiase..kene biasekan diri plak tak msg2 awk..

im gonna miss u yang!

=end=

thinking...

2010-09-17T04:52:00.000-07:00

2 new person in my life..

not exactly new..mention bout them a lot in this blog..

but this time..i wont mention their name..

just dont..but ive been thinking bout them a lot in these past few days..~

i think bout them often becoz of this one guy..~

directly..he done nothing towards me..nothing he does shows that he care for me..

i told him i wanted to go to his house for raya..raya kan? takkan tak ley..

but as usual..i cant come..i was not invited..*sedangkan that time..his frenz was on their way to his house* agak terasa disitu..huhu..wutever~

because of that..make me think about the other 2 guys~

A n B~

A..a very charming guy..will do almost everything for me..

will always be there when i need him..i remember this one time..

we went out..not only the two of us..a few of our frenz were there..

he did sumthing sweet..sumthing that i would expect he would do..~

i like him even more back then...~

B..huh..what can i say bout this guy..he's a jerk when he's not around me..bout when he's beside me..i can fall for him instantly..hahahah..he..out of all my frenz..the one who will make sure im ok all of the time..will be my bodyguard laa senang cite..tip top nye penjagaan rapi! ahhahaha..thats y i love him damn much.~! *as a fren n bro* will never be more than that..

as compared to these two..that guy..needs to learn a lot! a lot i tell u~!

takde ke org mcm B? a want a bf like B..*the good side* heheheh..sbb die sgt kejam! mcm mau cekik!

sye nak dieeeee~

tpi die nak sye ke?? T_T

=end=

laguuu~

2010-09-01T06:01:00.000-07:00

kekasih gelap?

derita merindu?

hahahah..

lagu nak dramatik n mendalam kan?

aih~!

both of this song came up when im with him..

every single time..coincidence? might be~

signs? perhaps~

derita merindu..the song i cried my eyes out when the first time the song came out on the radio..

we just had our huge enormous fight that night..n the song portray everything..

every single sentence and words in that songs hit dead on on what he had done to me..~

all sums up good! heheh..

now..everytime i hear that song..i'll almost cry! ALMOST! hahaha

bongok je kan? hihi..wut to do! senang nanges!! hahahhahah

kekasih gelap..?

hehehe..now dh naek pangkat jadi kekasih gelap..

aih..y must that word exist! huhuhu..

i dont want to be anyone's "kekasih gelap"!

PA ley? hahahaa..atleast sopan skit~! kan? hihi

i tend to get close to everyone very easily..

i dont know y..so please dont assume anything!

i prefer guys as i told u before..~

girls not so much! too many dramas~

guys are easy..meaning that their easy to talk to..~

u get what i mean~

arghhh~
my mom is calling!

later!

=end=

sleepy but....~

2010-08-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

*yawnnnn*

just got back from lepaking with Pian..~

yea..only Pian~

suppose kuar ngan Si Bongok...but then..die bz n penat~

nasib Pian baek..kalau tak die naek moto sensorg g Setapak! hihihi

teman him..tgk die maen badminton ngan die nye abg angkat..

nie dh second time pegi tgk die maen..agak bosan gak sbb sorg..

tade member nak bersembang..n im the only gurl situh..

jumpe Erol..lame tak nampak die..

nasib baek bawak MP3..kalau tak mati kebosanan! huhuhu

2 jam yg sgt ..... tade a right word! hahahaha..

it was fun tho watching them play.. =D

after settle maen tuh..

kul 1 lebey g sahur..awal sungguh sahur!

hihi..g Murni kat Aman Suria *thnx Syaf bagi tunjuk jln*

mkn2 sampai kul 3 lebey..~

byk yg harus dibincangkan..hahahahaha~

nasib dh mamai..kalau tak sambung lgi tuh..~ hihi

send him back..

fyi..LDP nye tol free for the whole day starting today until midnight~

sile jln2 area situ ek..preeeee~ hihi

Nyettttt!!

mau eskreemmmm!! byk nye utangmu padaku~

bile ley tuntut nih! hehehe

Si Bongok!!

i miss u damn much! cane nih?

esok sye gedik2 kacau awk lgi ek..hahahhahaha

rindu kamuu~

mencari idea mau menulis..

tpi buntu!

mau golek2 keriangan atas katil..

mane aa tau kalau2 ade idea..

hihi

=end=

The Goodbye Song by Handle With Care

2010-08-27T22:55:00.000-07:00

The bright side
Of the shadow cast by the moonlight
It was worth the while
Your voice was my lullaby
For all this time

But my time is up
I'm so jaded

I'll always remember
From the bottom of my heart
Your eyes and your smile
Will always be framed inside my heart
I'll miss you, yeah it's true
And the hardest part of leaving
Is just saying goodbye to you

Let it be a secret
Let it be untold
Let it be a tale killed as time passes by
We both know that it's never gonna happen
Not a million years
Not a thousand miles apart

But my time is up
I have to go away

And I'll always remember
From the bottom of my heart
Your eyes and your smile
Will always be framed inside my heart
I'll miss you, yeah it's true
And the hardest part of leaving

Is just saying goodbye to you (to you)
I wish your star could tell me where you are
Oh you, oh you
Don't ask if you're worth dying for

And I'll always remember
From the bottom of my heart
Your eyes and your smile
Will always be framed inside my heart
I'll miss you, yeah it's true
And the hardest part of leaving
Is just saying goodbye

And the hardest part of leaving
Is just saying goodbye to you

Lyrics: Faisal Yusof
Music: Handle With Care

************************************************************

im in luv with this song..

i've heard it before..i think when they performed it at Padang Timur dulu~

i wanted to google them up..tpi lupe~

tetibe jumpe diorg mase buka puasa with Estranged..

didnt knew them at first..

mase balek tuh baru tau..coz Kak Aiezza tagged one of them at my pix..

then baru teringat! ehhehe

so i googled them..n came across their profile at myspace..

listen to this song..n automatically fell in love with the song~

since i just left someone..n going tru not a very hard time *im over it..hihi*

making this song the most suitable song for me rite now..

difficult for me to say goodbye to him..

he keeps crawling back into my life..as if there's nothing happen between us..

he come n go as he pleased..leaving me hanging n blur most of the time..

but still..i still accept him as a fren tho..

i am immune to how he treat me now..i'll just be there when he needs me..

dulu kalau die buat perangai mcm nih..i'll scream n yell at him..

now..i buat bodo je laa..buat mcm normal..lantak laa nak buat ape pn..

sumtimes at times i think die fed up coz i tade perasaan..hahahahah..~

cool huh?

but dlm ati sape je laa tau..hihi..wut to do..

im trying to be strong n supportive for him..

bagi nasihat2 perli..supaya die sedar skit..n slowly will change..

see some improvement in him..good enough tho...~

**************************************************************

owh..ari tuh bukak pose same Keron, Fatin n Erna..!

sgt best! aih..i miss them damn much!

kalau lepak mmg tak ingat dunia..nak nak kalau ade fatin..

ngan lawak bengong die~!

we planned to go bercuti togeda2~

cant wait! harap jadi laa..

really looking forward!

=end=

Jaded..

2010-08-23T04:08:00.000-07:00

no words could describe my feelings currently except for that..~

giving up? might be..but will throw away that feeling as far as i can..

so that i will have a lil bit of courage to continue and hold on to myself..

been thinking..not a lot..but enough to disrupt my mood the whole day..~

where would i be in a few years time..?

seriously..now? i dunno whats the answer..

looking at my mom n dad..a lil bit of my sis..

they have achieved something..

n what did i achieved? nothing as to compare to them..~!

might ended up being just an ordinary person..

not good enough for me!!

i want to like my mom..the best in her field..the best in Malaysia..

my dad..also the best in his field..

me? hahhaha..difficult to be the best..really? just saying..

argghhhh!~

continue? quit???

not a quitter!

extand? thinking of it~ huhuh

which paper to take this sem?

dunno yet..aih~

almost break fast already..

out!

=end=

berbuka puasa~

2010-08-20T03:22:00.000-07:00

yea yea..
me likey u Din~! oppzzz..terlebey excited! hahahaha
me likey u too En. Hanafi! =D

Berbuka sama Estranged family yesterday..
thnx to kak Aieza for inviting me to join berbuka with u guys!
sooo sweet of uu~ hihihi

We berbuka at Madam Kwan @ Pavilion..~
i was sitting in front of Din..*tercair jap..hihhi*
first time i got the chance to talk to him n Hanafi..
Din the funny guy..n a very happy go lucky person..
n i noticed 1 thing..tgn n jari2 die sgt lawa! hahahahahaha
*mmg ske tgk jari org..hihi*
Hanafi the quiet one..quiet ke?
hahaa..maybe dgn org yg tak kenal..but i feel that die nih sgt best kalau mau hang out!
aih..when will that be? huhuhu~

had a blast spending time with them..
n all the others as well..
Handle with Care was also there..
to be honest..i dont even knew who they were~
hihhi..i just did!
n they r pretty cool..n im in luv with one of their song --> The Goodbye Song~
luv the sound of the piano!

hopefully i have a chance to hang out with u guys again..
sorry i didnt have the chance to speak to every each n everyone of u guys there..
will do later..when we meet up again~ =D

=end=

a wrong way to make frenz

2010-08-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

a girl..i added her up because of my curiosity to know her relationship with Azril..

never thot after a few weeks of being her "sort of frenz"

she kind of a stalker on her own..i bet if i didnt add her up..she will add me up eventually~

i came across every single person who is related to Azril..girl especially..will ended up being her fren as well..weird huh~

the other day..she sort of stole my status..hahahaha..

not that i even bothered..but hey~ the least thing u can do is admit~

be original laa babe..just dont steal others idea n claim its urs~! aih..

another thing is..she did msg me..a long time ago..

funny tho..claiming sumthing which totally untrue~

hehehehhe..now i know who u r..

more desperado than me..at least im not a psychopath who runs around stalking their ex!

like i said..."letting go is very easy..forgetting is the hard part"

hey gurl..seems like it is VERY hard for u to let him go..n FORGET him~

be true to urself..n stop being a busybody..

n the most important thing is..jgn laa jadi batu api~

u ruin everyone life by doing so..

dont be a selfish..if u didnt get him..it doesnt mean that anyone else should end up like u..

its his life to choose with whom he wanna be with..who r u to decide..

like the old saying..if u love the person so much..u just gotta let them go n be happy for them..

he's not for me..maybe i'll find someone else..might not be as what he is..but good enough to call him my own..n u should be like that too~

now..frenz or not? im not too sure..

let it be..if he need someone to talk to..

i'll sure be there..n if he dont..thats just fine with me

even if he just contact me once in a blue moon~ im cool~ hhihi

i have my frenz..

Nyet n Ed who will always be there for me..

not to forget my bengong frenz..hihihi..luv u guys..u know who u r..~

it is not a mistake to know u..

n i never regret what happen between us..

i'll cherish those things that we did..

but things just wont be the same anymore..~

=end=

tioman gateway~ =)

2010-08-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

a fab weekend with frenz!
3 days 2 night at Genting Bayu Resort was spectacular!
the view was amazing!
tenang je duduk situ~
layanan diorg pn best~ first class tuh..
worth it jugak laa bayar...~
bilik ok..stendet laa kalau mau yg murah kan..
tpi bes golek2 kat katil yg besarrrr~! hiihihi
had a blast there..
mau pegi lagiiiii =D

=end=

weee~

2010-08-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

im at the old taste cafe~
with Nyet yg gedik~
ingat bley laa tuntut eskrem~
tpi hanya tinggal kenangannn~ =(
bile yang mau gaji???
nak eskrem mahallllll~ ihihihii

darlingku keje ngan tekun??
hahahahaha..tekun laa sgt..FB lagi penting!
cis~

wah..ade homework balek nih~
mcm mls nak buat..
ley tak kalau tak buat??
hihih~ =P

=end=

letting u go again

2010-08-09T08:07:00.000-07:00

a few days ago..

we had a huge fight..

an im sorry for everything

yea..im at fault for being extremely sensitive..

im sorry for acting the way i acted..

very rude of me..

sorry i didnt give a chance for u to explain..

sorry for shutting u off completely the other day..

sorry for attacking u..i know u didnt like it..

thnk u love for being there for me..

thnk u for being a fren..

thnk u for cheering me up when im down..

thnk u for fighting with me all day..makes me forget all the things n misery that ive been thru day after day..

thnk u for lending ur shoulder to cry on..for wiping my tears when i cried.

thnk u for holding my hand..felt secure when im with u..

thnk u for always being there for me when i asked u out..turutkan jugak walaupn penat..

a lot of things that i wanted to say..

but hve no words left for it..

just..sorry if i hve hurt u..

n thnk u for everything..

sorry things end up like this...

=end=

cant sleep!

2010-07-29T10:18:00.000-07:00

shit!
now my sleeping timing dh kacau bilau~
thnx to my sickness~
ceh..

i am very tired! so damn sleepy!
but i cant sleeeeeepppppp~!!
dammit!

plz plz plz dont be too nice to meeee~
i can easily fall for u..
haahhahah..damn~

owh..this is my 200 post!
wow..cant believe i write so much~
lalala~

plz dont be so bloody annoying
bermanja2 n mengedik2 ngan my fren! sile gedik ngan bf sendiri bley?
dem yu!

im on a mission to do something to someone~
so that he will feel what i feel for all this while~
weee..muekekekeke~

owh Nyet~
ice cream plz! u promiseeeeedddd~!
im fine noww~
hihihii~

=end=

1st day of work! sort of~ hihi

2010-07-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

waaaaaa...
1st day of working *afta baek dr demam*
i leave the office at 930 pm! hihhi
dedicated huh? =P
was tired..but then..lots of work to do..
seriously..very close to deadline..
with audit report must be sent out..tax form have to be submitted..
everything must be settle within this week!
huh!~

almost fainted today..
didnt eat this morning..i ate my med..but didnt eat nething before it..
so kinda weak..mau pengsan je rase..
kuatkan jugak laa diri..
my boss said i am different now..
slalu im the happy one..bouncy..ceria..kecoh! hehehe
but today..ckp pn lemah semacam..hahahahha
wut to do..not fully recover! will be next week~
after all this chaos is over! ngeee~

im waiting for someone..
he didnt seem to online today..
bummer..maybe tomorrow?
lets hope! hihhi

tired..time to take my med n go to sleeeppppp~
nite peeps!

=end=

waiting~!

2010-07-26T12:44:00.000-07:00

almost time to take my med~
huhu..sick sux tho..i really need to follow my med time coz i cant bare to be sick any longer..
tomorrow is my last day of mc..
im not sure if im ready to go to work or not..
imagining the work load that i will face soon..~!
can i quit? ahahahaha..

no idea what to write nemore..
since i have done nothing at home!
browsing n swearing even more today..hahaha
my fb cant seem to be loading..all social network to be precise! including hotmail!
damn..i cant check my email today..
its weird tho..only these websites cant be viewed..apart from those..
like youtube, yahoo etc..sume ley masuk! damn laa
wonder whats wrong..weird! now..everytime i want to enter those website..i hve to type "https//" instead of "http//" huhu~
porkeee???
hopefully tomorrow will be normal again..

im usually the type of person who is not bothered bout other people..
gossip just come n go for me..~
something wrong sumwhere..now i tend to spread the gossip! ahahhahaha
maybe the surrounding factor..ie the people around me tend to spread those things also!
back then..ur secrets will definitely be safe with me..~
now..most of it..part of it..Ed will know..hihihi~
sorry..atleast she wont gossipping it to anyone..*i hope!*
thinking back..i should change..not should..must!
i dont want to be bothered by anyone's life anymore..
who cares aite? their lives..do what ever they want..which ever way they want..
who am i to judge..advice? maybe..depends on who n what the topic is~
if that person is sensitive..might ignore n let it be..~
if the other way around..i'll think about it..hihihi

backing up? always!
if u r a fren of mine..i'll back u up..IF its worth it..
im a fren..i shouldnt only back u up every time..
look at the case laa..be logical~
if u r at fault..y should i back u up..
listen..the key to everything..
i'll listen to ur explanation..will support or advice..which ever is appropriate~
back me up if u knew im right n u trust me!! i'll do the same~ =)

thinking n thinking~
owh..i used my mom fon to kacau sum1~
n turns out to be a nightmare..hahaha
he called my mom today..n said a few things which is totally rude!
he yelled at her n smsed her stuff..which i think is kinda funny~
ahhahaha..my mom told me..if he was my fren..
told him that she said..*kalau tue kawan kamu..kate nape biadab sgt..tak bley ckp elok2 ke?*
hhihih..i just laugh..n i sms the guy..told him that he just spoke to my mom in a very rude way..
he called me after that..said sorry..
aih..if he thinks a lil bit more..he knows how to respect others..especially if u dont know the person..ape daa nak jadi..ckp elok2 skit ye laen kali! hihihi

aaaa~
yes yes! its time to sleeeeeepppp..
time to take my med noww~
tired! sleepy!

=end=

hospital~!

2010-07-25T11:32:00.001-07:00

its 23o am now..
just got back from the hospital..
after 5 hours being there..
sux tho!
my left arm felt a lil bit numb..
1st time tho lepas amek darah rasa numb mcm nih..

the doc laugh at me just now..
he tried to take my blood..but the blood doesnt seem to come out..
penat jugak tgk die cucuk2..
kluar masuk cari darah..he asked me whether it hurts..
but i said no..hehehe...
been there..
there was this one time..this one lousy doc try to take my blood..
he cucuk me at 3 different places! hampeh tul..kalah vamp! hhahaha
nasib im not the type of person yg takut jarum..
cucuk laa slagi boley..tade perasaan pn..hihihi~

the test result..turn out to be there's some infection..dunno what..*thats what the doc said..maybe throat kot!* n my urine kotor skit..mungkin sbb kurang minum air..yea yea..
been sleeping for 3 days..mane sempat minum air..heheheh..
got 2 days more MC..can rest at home! yeay..
but thingking about the work load that i will face later..
macam mau masuk office esok! huhhuhu~

anyway..not suppose to be online rite now..
kepala tgh biul nih..
anytime je pengsan! huhuhu
mau tdoooooo~

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write write write~!

2010-07-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

when im down..
the best way for me to cool down or regain myself again is either by writing or by having fun with my closest fren..not just any ordinary way of lepaking..i'll do sumthing outrageous..so that i will set aside myself from the gloomy sadness~

hvent have much time for myself lately..if u're working in my kind of field..u'll get what i mean..
most of my frenz do tho..thnk god they understand if i dont spend much time with them..
a few more days or weeks to go until the end of this year peak seasons..will be bz..but not as hectic as this past 2 3 months..will be bz only at the end of the month..standards tho..everyone needs their pay..thats what accounts people do..issues cheques! ahhahah..since that only happen at every early-end of the month..so not a very bz thing..

now it is..everything needs to be ready before 31st july! but then..i've been missing in action for 3 days now..due to unavoided circumstances..*been sick for 2 weeks now..lately i just cant handle it..really need a rest* so i am deeply sorry..sorry cekgu coz hve to take over my job..coz the report have to be sent out by yesterday..sooo sorry~! huhuhu

after a lot of thinking..i came into a conclusion..that i've been sick because of something..n that something is things that i dont want to write about here..if u knew me..u know what question to ask..then automatically u'll know the right answer..because this sadness overcome my happiness..until now..i cant be cured..i need my happiness back..i really need it so that i will be ok again..this sux! really sux! i need to go somewhere..maybe JB perhaps..just to clear my mind for this hectic n bz schdule~

im thinking of resigning from my current job..after 4 months doing auditing..until now i still dont love the job..im not an auditor..i dunno what i am..still trying to figure out myself..even worst..i dunno wut to do with my studies..most of my fren already regstered their subject..i hvent even find a place yet for tuition! damn~

u may force me to love u
u may force me to do the things ur way
but i will only love u because u want me to
n i will follow everything that u want me to do to u
but in the end
my love for u wont be the love u hope for
i will only love u for awhile
only at a certain point until u became worthless to me
then u came to realize that in the end
u will loose someone who is irreplaceable and so important to u..
until then..that person will no longer be urs..
i will no longer love u..even tho at certain point of that relationship..u are the love of my life..
im letting u go because i cant bare the hurt and the pain i carry every single night without u even notice..
thats the end..u'll find someone..might not be as what u imagine that someone will be..
just love her the way it should be..cherish her as tho she will leave u someday..
so that u wont live with regrets later when she leaves u coz u've done everything u could to love her..n i will envy that gurl in a lot of ways..

building a wall now..cant seem to trust guys anymore..
they will always find ways to make me hate them..
no offence guys..the "BF" type only..frenz excluded! =)

im free now..hopefully i can be myself again..
till then~

owh..he texted me again today..what shall i do?
ignore? my heart wanting to reply..but dont want to be caught in the mess~
will sleep on it..hahaha

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confession of a broken heart~

2010-07-23T19:53:00.000-07:00

yup yup..
not really broken..but more to regret n devastated of him not wanting to change~
i met this guy..
about a month ago..
i sort of told u guys in the previous post..
but i just stated *bayou..him..kuching*
now im gonna tell u bout him..~
Azril..the name of the guy..
i met him at this restaurant called Bayou @ Alamanda..
he works there..i dunno as what..
i was there with Ed..we were bz talking n gossipping..
n this guy suddenly called me sayang..
was weird tho..but i layankan je laa..haahhaha~

after we had our lunch..
when he gave us the bill..he asked for my phone number..
but i decline..i asked for his FB instead..
i gave him my email..so thats it..~
never tot that he will add me up..
he msg me..and asked for my fon num again~
after a few msges..i sms him..
thats how it all started~

in a month..
i almost fall for the guy..
i dunno y..he is far from romantic~
maybe because die sgt jahat kot..hahahaha
he's a player..no doubt bout that..
everytime i went out with him..ade je gurl yg akan call or sms~
wonder when he'll ever gonna change~
hopefully soon laa ye..

yesterday..i realize that i dont want to be in that mess..
so i decided to back of~
takut nanti kene etek ngan ntah sape2 kan..
so better back off..
it was hard tho..because we became close~
will still accept him as a fren..
but not more than that..

Babe..just take care of urself
choose one..n never look back..
thats all i ask..~

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